第 278 期·中文精讀

斯凱·菲茨傑拉德:飢餓、戰爭與人類苦難

Skye Fitzgerald: Hunger, War, and Human Suffering

與紀錄片導演對談饑荒與戰爭前線的拍攝經歷,探討人道危機的真實面貌與救援困境。

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每天有 8.11 億人在捱餓,4500 萬人處在饑荒邊緣,分佈在 43 個國家。而同期全球的糧食產量足夠餵飽每一個人。

這是本期播客開場時萊克斯·弗裡德曼拋給斯凱·菲茨傑拉德的問題。斯凱是一位兩次獲得奧斯卡提名的紀錄片導演,作品包括關於葉門戰爭的《飢餓病房》(Hunger Ward)、關於利比亞海域救援行動的《救生艇》(Lifeboat),以及關於敘利亞戰爭的《距敘利亞50英尺》(50 Feet from Syria)。

他沒有迴避這個數字,也沒有把它當成一個抽象統計來談。他談到的是:這些飢餓的人裡,有相當大一部分是戰爭和領導人故意決策的直接結果。用飢餓作為戰爭武器,早在二戰後寫進《日內瓦公約》時就被明令禁止,2018 年因沙特封鎖葉門,國際人道法又重申了一次。

法律的框架一直在那裡,執行卻始終缺席。葉門、衣索比亞、烏克蘭,今天依然在用。

葉門:一個母親生下了一個註定要死去的孩子

斯凱在葉門拍攝《飢餓病房》時遇到一位母親。她生完孩子後體重只有 70 磅。這意味著她的女兒在孃胎裡就已經在捱餓。孩子出生後,沒有母乳,配方奶極度匱乏。這個小女孩從出生前就被飢餓覆蓋。

她的名字叫阿西拉(Asila)。斯凱親眼看著她死在自己面前。

她沒有機會長大,沒有機會發現愛,沒有機會擁有自己的事業。她因為出生時就被嵌入的飢餓而被剝奪了所有這些可能。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

她不是自然餓死的。她的母親因為國家被封鎖而在捱餓,母親又在子宮裡餓著她。封鎖是誰下的?沙特王儲 MBS,在美英法的軍火支援下,在某種心照不宣的默許下。

這段敘述的關鍵落在另一個地方。它拆掉了一個常見藉口:饑荒是自然災害。天下沒有那麼多自然災害,有的是被人為製造出來的饑荒。

斯凱舉敘利亞的例子做對比。他在敘利亞專案中聽過大量平民的證詞:敘利亞直升機飛到居民區上空,投下裝滿炸藥和彈片的 55 加侖油桶,反覆投。打擊的目標從來不是軍事設施,目的只有一個,殺人,製造恐懼。他說,美國或聯軍本來有能力早期介入,設一個禁飛區,把那些直升機打下來。有能力,沒做。

他由此講到"什麼才算正義軍事行動"這個話題。當一個國家擁有軍事能力,卻眼看著幾十萬平民被殺而不動手,那麼這種能力本身就成了道德負債。

想象邪惡者的內心:他是怎麼說服自己的?

萊克斯問了一個很刁的問題。作為一個紀錄片導演,你能不能在心理上住進一個你恨的人的軀體裡,去想他是怎麼走到今天這一步的?

斯凱的回答揭示了他電影方法論的底層邏輯。他在劇院受過訓練,有兩個戲劇學位。演員進入角色,就是進入另一個人的世界觀,理解他為什麼覺得自己做的是好事。

他說,絕大多數做惡的人,都認為自己是自己故事裡的英雄。

我的第一個訓練來自劇院,是演員的共情訓練,學會穿別人的鞋子,理解別人為什麼這樣看世界。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

他點名了三個他認為在這個星球上造成了不可想象的苦難和謀殺的人:阿薩德、MBS、普京。他說他不提倡暴力,但世界如果少了這三個人,會好很多。

他依然願意去理解他們,理解完了之後,仍然認為他們的行為無法被辯護。理解不等於原諒。紀錄片導演和宣傳者的根本區別在這裡:你花那麼大力氣去理解一個人,是為了讓"他做的事不可原諒"這個判斷有分量。這個判斷由此建立在 firsthand 觀察上,比單純從道德上厭惡他要紮實得多。

一個孩子死於飢餓,一個 10 歲女孩遞水給另一個孩子

葉門每 75 秒死一個孩子。

斯凱和萊克斯採訪到第 35 分鐘左右的時候,他停頓了一下說:我們坐在這裡聊了這段,已經有好幾個孩子走了。這就是所謂的"心理麻木"的危險。數字太大,人會麻木。所以必須聚焦到眼前這一個人。

《飢餓病房》講的是兩個人的故事。北方一個叫瑪基亞(Makiya Maji)的護士,南方一個叫艾達·阿爾·薩迪克(Dr. Aida Al Sadiq)的兒科醫生。兩人都在極其困難的條件下照料一整代出生在饑荒裡的孩子。

她們有一個共同的習慣:誰來都給治。不需要錢,不需要任何資源,只要你能走到診所門口。

有一個故事斯凱反覆提到。瑪基亞所在的北方診所是一家鄉村小診所,很多人從幾百公里外來,因為這是整個北方為數不多的兒科營養不良專科。一次來了一位男性親屬帶著一個女孩。按葉門的性別習俗,診療期間需要有一位親屬留下陪同。來的是男性親屬,正常情況醫生會拒絕。瑪基亞沒有拒絕。她走進一間病房,說服了另一位母親,讓這位母親臨時充當孩子的監護人,直到女性親屬趕來。

她會想到辦法解決,不會讓問題把解決方案擋住。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

斯凱還講了另一個他永遠不會忘的瞬間。一個叫奧梅瑪(Omeima)的 10 歲女孩,入院時體重 24 磅,幾乎站不起來。經過兩週多治療,她開始恢復。有一天,斯凱走進病房,看到奧梅瑪正把一小瓶蓋水遞給另一個比她更小的、同樣在捱餓的孩子。這個鏡頭被剪進了電影。

一個自己在捱餓的孩子,把食物遞給了另一個比她更虛弱的孩子。這讓我深受觸動。一個 10 歲的女孩,反而教給了我:人有選擇成為什麼人的能力,即使在最艱難的處境裡。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

斯凱說,拍完《飢餓病房》之後,他做這件事的感受發生了反轉。本以為自己會被這些沉重的畫面壓垮,結果自己被一個 10 歲女孩激勵了。

飢餓不是人的全部。它面前依然有人做出選擇。

拍完這樣的片子,你會被它改變

斯凱說,拍每一部片都會改變他。他不認為自己是靜態的,如果保持靜止,就沒法進到那些現場去。

拍攝《飢餓病房》中最難的事情之一其實是吃飯。他們在營養不良治療中心(TFC)拍攝,那裡的孩子長期失去消化正常食物的能力。離開診所回到營地、回到酒店,街上有食物,酒店裡有食物。他每天提醒自己,看著一片面包,或者一碗米飯,想起診所裡那個孩子,然後才能拿起筷子。

我不確定那叫不叫內疚。它算不上內疚,它是一種有意識的觀照。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

一個把拍攝物件當人看、不當素材的導演,才會說出這種話。

從旁觀者到參與者:我在海邊扔下了攝影機

斯凱職業生涯裡有一個轉折點,他稱之為"直接電影"和"介入電影"的分水嶺。

他早期信奉的是弗雷德裡克·懷斯曼(Frederick Wiseman)的傳統,紀錄片導演就是牆上的一隻蒼蠅,只觀察,不介入,任何形式的干預都是對真實的背叛。

直到他拍《救生艇》。

2016 年,地中海的難民危機達到頂峰。希臘和土耳其邊界關閉之後,原本從土耳其到希臘的敘利亞難民流被推向西邊,改從利比亞出發橫渡地中海。歐盟沒有承擔起巡邏搜救的責任,一群民間志願者自己湊錢買了一條科考船,改裝後開到利比亞沿海,開始把落水的人撈上來。斯凱跟著一條叫 Sea Watch 的 NGO 的船出發。

前三天,他們遇到超過 3000 名尋求庇護者,漂浮在簡陋的橡皮艇上。拍攝開始幾個小時後,船體開始進水,有人被推下水,有人跳下水,有人掉下水,其中一些人不會游泳。

我們面前只有兩個選擇:拍下一個人溺水的過程,或者放下攝影機,把那個人從水裡拉出來。我們做了第二個。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

他們把攝影機放到橡皮艇底部,用手把人一個個拉出水面。

按照懷斯曼的正規化,他應該繼續拍。他沒有猶豫。他說,即便知道這一決定會改變這部片子,他也從沒後悔過。

在想這類問題的時刻,先做人,後做紀錄片導演。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

他在船上還有一個搭檔,攝影指導肯尼·艾倫(Kenny Allen),一個手臂像樹幹一樣粗的大漢。救援隊長讓他上衝鋒舟,因為他一隻手就能把一個人從水裡提起來,正常需要兩三個人。三天的救援裡,肯尼第一時間衝去拉人,第一天結束的時候,斯凱看到他在甲板上扶人爬梯子,他自己的攝影機不知道扔哪兒去了。斯凱走過去抓住他肩膀問:肯尼,你的攝影機呢?

肯尼不知道。

斯凱說:我們在這裡,是做你正在做的事,但我們在這裡,也是為了把它拍下來,留下記錄,帶到更大的觀眾面前。你去找攝影機,繼續拍。

肯尼找回攝影機繼續拍。這兩個場景放在一起,就是斯凱所說的"人性和職業的雙重身份"。你要能忘記攝影機,但最終必須重新記起它,因為記錄本身也是一種幫助。

三次創作:先想象,再退化,再重建

斯凱有一套自己歸納的方法論,他稱之為"三次創作"。

第一次創作,是開拍之前對電影的想象。你會看到它應該長什麼樣,如果有具體地點,會細到某場戲的畫面。

然後你到了現場,現實總是和想象不一樣。這時候如果死守原初想象,片子會爛掉。你必須接受現實,在現場重組,這是第二次創作。

拍完了,硬碟揹回來,插進剪輯臺。因為你通常也是自己拍一半的,你沒看過另一半素材。這時候你要一幀一幀過。斯凱做一個表格,把每一場的日誌記下來。《飢餓病房》的表格大約 1500 行。他要用一個月到兩個月把這一整套素材過完,然後從表格生成大綱。這是第三次創作。

很多片子拍的時候和想的是完全不一樣的。你必須重新看一遍素材,才知道自己到底有什麼。然後從零重建。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

斯凱說,拍《飢餓病房》這類難度極高的專案之前,他會先休息一個月,從中恢復,用新的眼睛重新看。然後再全身心投入。

這和科學研究的流程很像。萊克斯指出,你把現象變成資料,資料裡尋找結構,寫論文。"三次創作"就是創意版的資料分析。斯凱接受了這個類比。

他還說,剪輯過程中一定會有一個時刻,你突然理解了所有這些零件怎麼拼在一起。在那一刻到來之前,你需要耐心。

同意不是一張紙,是每天的對話

大型廣播公司有一套正式流程:把一份表格放到拍攝物件面前,讀一遍,簽字,不可撤銷,法庭上能站得住。

斯凱不這麼做。

他說,正式流程有一個致命的漏洞:拍攝物件可能是文盲,看不懂那張紙。可能不會簽名。這種情況下,正規流程反而無法完成。

他自己的做法是先對話,提問、等對方提問,直到雙方對這件事有完整理解,然後再確認對方是否願意參與。如果對方不會簽名,就在鏡頭前,用母語直接給出同意。

我討厭那張紙。真正的同意是你每天、每分鐘都在和拍攝物件重新建立的那種關係。它會變化。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

他更願意把拍攝物件稱為"合作者"。合作者這個詞背後有一整套關係邏輯:如果你合作的物件不信任你,你拍不到東西;如果你們之間形成了信任,你會一直保持聯絡。他昨天還收到了南方那位醫生阿爾·薩迪克發來的照片,是她正在治療的一些孩子的照片。兩人會保持聯絡很多年。

信任在這裡有實際的重量。它是紀錄片准入機制的核心。斯凱說,如果訪問難度大,你就必須真的花時間去贏得它。這種獲得准入的過程,反而決定了他能拍到什麼。

一個關於腳踏車和外科醫生的偶然故事

《距敘利亞50英尺》是斯凱"最容易"拿到的准入。

他參加腳踏車比賽摔傷了手,幾個月才能約到一個手部專科醫生。醫生是敘利亞裔美國人,敘利亞內戰剛爆發。斯凱和醫生聊起這件事。醫生看完手,用五分鐘說需要手術,然後起身把診室的隱私簾拉上。原本 15 分鐘的預約變成了一小時的聊天。醫生後來主動聯絡斯凱,說他要回敘利亞邊境做志願者外科醫生,問他願不願意同行。

我不知道那是運氣還是巧合。但這種神秘的匯合到處都是,你必須對它保持開放。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

他總結說,他自己不是最有天賦的導演,也不是最聰明的人。真正讓他走到今天的,是堅持。他 18 歲跑馬拉松,人生像是在壘球裡一次次擊出一壘安打,不斷累積。他相信"漸進式演化":每部片子都要比上一部好一點點。

土耳其的辛德勒

《距敘利亞50英尺》裡有一個核心人物,斯凱叫他"土耳其的辛德勒"。

一個當地的商人,沒有人付他錢,他自己看到了幾公里外的難民營裡醫療資源極度稀缺,急需救治的人過不了幾層邊檢。土耳其邊防、無人區的哨卡、敘利亞一側的守衛,三層關卡把人攔在營地裡。

他做了什麼呢?每天帶著食物去這一層層的哨卡,跟每個守衛聊天,送吃的,建立關係。關係建立起來後,他獲得了一條通道。每一天,他開車穿過三層關卡,守衛給他開門。他從北敘利亞接那些最危急的病人上車,拉到土耳其一側的診所手術。手術完了,人想回去,他再把他們送回去。

他不拿錢,他自己掏錢做這件事。因為他看見了另一些人正在受苦。這是英雄主義,是忘我,是我想成為的樣子。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

萊克斯提到電影《辛德勒的名單》裡一個很有意思的地方:辛德勒並不是傳統意義上的好人,甚至會令人不舒服。他被戰爭逼到了一個時刻,人性在他身上穿了出來。

斯凱接過話頭說,戰爭的反覆無常就是在這樣考驗人。它會要求你做一些你根本不知道自己會被要求做的事,然後透過你如何回應,告訴你是誰。

他二十多歲時的一個失敗,改變了他的一生

斯凱講了人生中最暗的時刻之一。

二十多歲時他住在南加州。一天他騎腳踏車沿著太平洋海岸公路,拐彎前聽到一聲巨響。拐過去一看,是一場多車相撞。一輛沃爾沃撞上另一輛車,彈過車頂撞上一輛大眾麵包車,把麵包車的頂蓋整個掀開。有三個人躺在路上。一具屍體已經被撞得身首分離,另一個人還活著躺在路中間。一個女人被甩出擋風玻璃,落在沃爾沃引擎蓋上,全身是血,發出低沉的呻吟。

有個路人衝進車流開始給人做急救。

斯凱說,他當時整個人僵住了。他想跑向引擎蓋上那個女人,他知道她一定會死,他想至少在她最後的時刻給她一些安慰。可就在那一刻,警笛響起來。他知道幾分鐘內就會有專業急救人員到場。他就那樣站著,什麼也沒做,看著那個女人在引擎蓋上死去。

那是我人生中重大的失敗之一,我沒能在他人最需要的時候行動,無論這個行動多麼微小。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

從那天起,他給自己立了一個規矩:如果我將來再次處在能夠行動、能夠幫助另一個人的位置,我會行動,我不會讓恐懼僵住自己。恐懼會成為行動的催化劑。

他後來的紀錄片工作,某種意義上是這個誓言的延伸。你面對一個生命,你不能袖手旁觀。

如果你想介入,就必須承受痛苦本身

萊克斯問他:你什麼時候決定要拍一部片子?怎麼判斷它值得拍?

斯凱說他有一個"那又怎樣"(so what)的門檻。一個題材,如果沒人去拍、沒人把它放到世介面前,如果不拍它就無法動員資源和關注去解決問題,那麼它就值得拍。

他說他拿起攝影機不是為了拍小狗和花朵。他相信攝影機是一種改變工具,一種可以用來提高意識、調動資源、讓人理解地緣政治決策如何落到真實人身上的工具。

選題有半是直覺,也有半是刻意。而且往往一部片會自然帶出下一部,因為拍攝過程中建立的關係會引導你進入下一個議題。一個同事跟你提到某地正在發生什麼,你可能在世界大規模報道之前就先知道了。

最像佩德羅·阿爾莫多瓦的畫面在葉門

萊克斯問:你在那種地方,語言不通,怎麼理解那些人?

斯凱回答:痛苦是痛苦,愛是愛,共情不只透過語言發生。有很多普世的東西是可以跨語言的,透過畫面,透過行動,透過電影的語言。

他舉了一個電影裡的例子。葉門南方的一位叫薩爾哈(Salha)的女性,在片中名字未被提及,但多次出現。她是病房的門神,沒人能不經她允許進入病房。同時她是病房裡共情的第一個介面。有母親和家屬入院時,她透過擁抱、透過帶來食物,迅速建立起和他們的關係。

片尾有一個鏡頭,又一個孩子死了,母親在哭。電影切到走廊裡的薩爾哈。她走進另一間房,開始抽泣。她不是那個孩子的家人,但她已經和那家人建立了很深的關係。

一個女人因為一個孩子的死而哭泣,哪怕這個孩子和她沒有血緣關係,這是所有文化都能感受到的東西。這就是我說的視覺語言。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

薩爾哈已經見證了很多這樣的痛苦,她依然讓自己脆弱,依然允許自己哭。這或許正是她還能繼續做下去的原因。

他也曾害怕停下,他選擇了不停下

萊克斯問:拍這些片子的時候,有沒有某個時刻你想走開,回到美國,回到有食物、有自由、可以想幹啥幹啥的地方?

斯凱說他活在這種倖存者負罪感裡。這種感覺是存在的。但他把它轉化成一種有意識的察覺,轉化成向前走的力量。

你不去想它,你就會停在原地。你想著它,它就成為動力。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

他說他也怕死。他沒有求死之心,他會儘可能降低風險。但在戰區不帶武裝安保,是一種策略:你帶著武裝安保,你自己就成了目標;你以國際人道法的身份行動,反而獲得更多保護。在葉門北方,你本身就是有官方人員陪同的,官方是你旅行的一部分。

恐懼是一種警報。他不認為恐懼是要被克服的東西。他讓恐懼在那裡,然後依然行動。

萊克斯補了一句:對一個紀錄片導演來說,恐懼可能是一個很好的訊號,說明這裡有值得幹的活兒。因為你怕它,它才值得做。

斯凱接受了這個說法。這正是他這類人做這類工作的原因。

一位烏干達護士,一位葉門護士,一位辛德勒

萊克斯問:怎麼分辨一個真正值得拍的英雄?

斯凱不認為"英雄"是個抽象的概念。他見過的人都是具體的:一位在葉門北方鄉村診所裡給幾百公里外趕來的孩子看病的護士,一位每天穿越三層關卡接送難民的土耳其商人,一位在葉門南方醫院門口擋住所有人、又第一個擁抱病人的老太太。

這些人做的不是宏大敘述裡的事。他們做的是一天一天的具體動作。

他說他作為一個人、作為一位父親、作為一個導演,最相信的就是這種具體:如果一個動作能產生作用,就去做它。

關於烏克蘭,關於制裁,關於那些人的名字能不能上飛機

談到烏克蘭,斯凱說,全球原本有 7900 萬流離失所者,烏克蘭危機又增加 400 到 600 萬。即使衝突今天結束,這些位移會持續影響全球資源分配很多年。

萊克斯問:對那些造成苦難的人,靠什麼才能讓他們付出代價?軍事、制裁,還是對話?

斯凱說,這是三種不同工具,要用在不同時間點。如果話說了沒用,制裁沒用,那麼有些時候力量是正當的。他認為敘利亞就是其中一例:當油桶炸彈連續幾個月落在平民區,明確只為了殺平民時,把那些直升機擊落是正當的。

但有一個更難的問題。萊克斯問:我們怎麼知道當前的干預是"正義的"?回顧十年二十年我們容易判斷,但在當下如何判斷?

斯凱承認這很難。他說,領導人之所以經常做錯選擇,恰恰是因為他們會自我懷疑,會遲疑。但也有一些情況,事實非常清楚。葉門就是。所有美國需要做的,就是確保封鎖被解除,孩子們就不會再捱餓。這個因果鏈非常短,可以清楚追蹤。

沒做,是因為想維持和沙特的關係,因為石油、因為中東影響力、因為要保住這種關係而不想承擔道德傷口。

他給了一個非常具體的例子。美國情報部門的報告已經明確寫出 MBS 對卡舒吉(Khashoggi)的謀殺負責,包括把屍體切成塊、可能在使館後院燒掉。拜登上臺時承諾要把 MBS 變成"賤民",但沒有。

如果拜登真的做了他承諾的事,比如禁止 MBS 的飛機進入美國領空,這是一項具體而個人的制裁,對 MBS 會是極大的羞辱。這才是領導力該做的事。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

他說,個人化的制裁在威權國家那種體制裡特別有效,因為個人權力是那麼集中。如果普京知道未來可能在海牙被審判,哪怕審判從不會真的發生,這個威脅都會改變他以後的外交行程安排。MBS 不能飛美國,他會感到真實的難堪。

領導人做出這種事的時候,是會給其他國家領導人一個訊號:有些線不能越,越了就會有後果。

為什麼他的片子這麼難看到?

萊克斯問了一個技術問題:為什麼這麼難在網際網路上看到你的片子?我願意付無限多的錢就能看到,為什麼這麼難?

斯凱說,一部分原因是經濟結構。片子是藝術,也是產業。他必須考慮如何接觸到最大的觀眾,同時也必須為下一部片子的資金考慮。這兩件事是持續拉扯的。

在《飢餓病房》之前,他自己掏錢拍片子。用信用卡。拍《救生艇》是這樣,拍《距敘利亞50英尺》也是這樣。那張信用卡就是他對自己的投資。他說他每次這麼做最終都做到了盈利,但這需要他在財務上有一定風險承受能力。

萊克斯說他對此很惋惜:真正需要被更多人看到的片子,反而缺少一個像 YouTube 那樣無障礙的平臺。付費牆製造摩擦。只要讓使用者多點一次、多填一個郵箱,就有人會放棄,轉身開啟 TikTok。

斯凱半開玩笑說,如果萊克斯真的給了他那一萬億美元的支票,他第一件事就是把所有片子都放到 YouTube 上。然後他補充說,他會把錢用在增加製作能力上,訓練三個小團隊去複製他做過的這種工作,讓更多故事被拍出來。

他在現實和電影院之間只有一隻攝影機

萊克斯問:這是這個世界最需要的片子,為什麼它這麼難做?

斯凱答:因為拍紀錄片一次只有一條。你不能喊"重來一條"。

這是他反覆講到的一個核心點。虛構電影可以反覆拍,紀錄片不能。你只能對著生活本身拍,跟著它走,不能重來。所以你必須一直在場,必須讓"那一次"抓住所有東西。

他說,自己拍片子的關鍵不在技術,在准入。准入是最難的部分。到了現場,你沒法帶五個人進屋,沒法在病床上舉著吊杆麥克風,沒有重來的機會。所以你的團隊必須最小。他和攝影指導兩人一組,配上長焦鏡頭,退到角落,在 15 英尺外拍,不打擾任何人。

燈光也一樣。他最主要用的是陽光。需要補光的時候,用幾個 USB 充電的小管燈。他不用大裝置。在那種環境裡,電力經常是個問題,帶大燈不現實。

世界上最好的燈光器材是太陽。你需要做的是在正確的時間使用它,然後順應它、塑造它。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

萊克斯說他自己拍東西的時候,把裝置裝在一個垃圾袋裡運。斯凱笑了。他說這種反精緻的方法訓練了他的直覺。當然他也強調,他不是技術控,但技術必須紮實,因為視覺是紀錄片的核心。他做攝影指導幾十年,是為了養活自己,也因此必須懂技術。

關於電影的語言,關於剪接,關於紀錄片和新聞報道的邊界

斯凱說,他堅持電影應該是視覺驅動的,不是語言驅動的。文字說一個人痛苦,不如讓人看到他痛苦。

他舉了前文提到的薩爾哈的例子。那個鏡頭沒有透過文字說明"這位護士很傷心",而是剪到她走進另一個房間開始哭泣。

他說他在電影裡會做的一件事,是偶爾讓攝影機的存在感露出一點點。比如保留一個提問的聲音,讓觀眾意識到鏡頭背後有一個提問者。這是一種"第四面牆"的小破口。

他覺得有些紀錄片導演會把鏡頭對準自己,他不喜歡那種,他稱之為"肚臍眼紀錄片",也就是納西索斯式的自我凝視。他覺得那種導向很自戀。他要的是介入,發生在鏡頭前的現實才是主角,導演退到鏡頭後面。

我不重要。重要的是這個世界正在發生的事,是我們需要行動的事。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

那部在匈牙利拍攝的電影

斯凱提到一部他最喜歡的紀錄片,《A Woman Captured》,在匈牙利拍攝,一位女性被一戶人家當作家庭奴隸扣了 10 年。導演起初只是拍攝,後來明白了這其實是現代奴役。於是導演從"觀察者"變成"協助者",幫這個女人逃出來,成為自由的人。

斯凱還提到另外兩部最喜歡的:維克多·科薩科夫斯基的《水》(Aquarela),一部關於水在我們星球和生活中位置的冥想式紀錄片;一部 2019 年在俄羅斯拍攝的《不朽》(Immortal),一位俄羅斯女導演從國家如何把個體塑造成國家機器的角度來思考。

他還提到弗雷德裡克·懷斯曼的《提蒂卡特的蠢事》(Titicut Follies),在精神病院內拍攝的片子。他說懷斯曼是直接電影的教父,他早期信奉"牆上蒼蠅"的正規化,後來被《救生艇》改變了。

他對"紀錄片應該怎樣拍"這個問題沒有固定答案。他說有一部頂級的紀錄片,是一個導演一臺機器一支鏡頭拍的,這完全可以做到。他說的是《A Woman Captured》。但那不是他自己最擅長的路徑。

他對年輕人說的話:把手機放下,學會觀察

萊克斯最後問:你對高中、大學階段的年輕人,對想要過一個值得過的生活的人,有什麼建議?

斯凱說:把手機放下,從螢幕前走開。

他說,真實的生活在螢幕外面。真正對成功有決定作用的技能,藏在更深的地方。學校或大學裡教的是技術技能,而這些技能下面還有一層更基礎的東西:學會和人互動,學會傾聽,學會觀察。他提到一個具體的例子:如果電力斷了,你離家五英里,手機沒電,你能不能靠自己在路上標記出來的視覺地標走回家?如果不能,那說明我們已經在滑向一個危險的世界:衛星一停,一大半人完全失能。

學寫作,學閱讀,大量讀書。這裡面有一種從螢幕裡得不到的知識和智慧。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

他說自己的劇院訓練在紀錄片裡幫了他很多,因為那本質上是人與人的對話、聆聽、交流。這就是他做紀錄片的方法:聽。

那本高中老師送的《先知》

萊克斯問他有沒有幾本書影響過你的一生。

斯凱說,高中英語老師送給他一本紀伯倫的《先知》,作為畢業禮物。那本書至今還留在他書架上特別的位置。他覺得紀伯倫談論人性本質的方式,讓他時時回去翻閱,那裡有智慧。

他說他大部分時間讀非虛構。有一本叫《Ten Points》的回憶錄,作者是《Bicycle》雜誌的前編輯比爾·斯特里克蘭,講的是他成長過程中大量遭受虐待、最終成為另一種人的故事。

還有一本是《高效能人士的七個習慣》,他二十多歲時讀的。"先理解,再被理解",其中一個習慣。這本書對他影響很深。

被雕刻的石頭:他記得一句話很多年

斯凱在討論人生意義的時候,講了一個他記了很多年的話。他在讀戲劇研究生的時候,導過 C.S. 路易斯的《影子大地》。裡面有這樣一段臺詞:我們就像石頭,雕刻者從石頭裡雕出人的形狀。那些造成疼痛的刻鑿,才雕出完美的形狀。

他說,他自己會去掉"完美"這個詞。但他一直記得這句話,是因為它背後的意思是:我們經歷過的這些刻鑿,塑造了我們,而且理應如此塑造我們,希望是把我們塑造成更好的人。對他而言,希望是塑造成一個能讓這個世界稍微好一點的人。

我的生命的意義,是讓我走之前,這個世界比我來之前好一點。(斯凱·菲茨傑拉德)

萊克斯問:你會想到死亡嗎?

斯凱說,他每一天都和自己的有限性一起生活。他知道自己的生命短暫,知道有一天也會入土(或者成為骨灰)。他不讓它攔住自己。它還反過來驅動他儘可能多做些事。

萊克斯用了一句話總結:對死亡的認識是一個舞伴,你要試著跟它跳得好看一點。

節目最後,萊克斯引用埃利·維瑟爾的話:愛的對立面不是恨,是漠然;藝術的對立面不是醜,是漠然;信仰的對立面不是異端,是漠然;生命的對立面不是死亡,是漠然。

你可以從今晚開始做的五件事

  • 去 New Yorker 的網站上找《救生艇》,在 Paramount Plus 或有廣告版渠道找《飢餓病房》。看完之後不要停留在"很難過"這個情緒裡,去查一下聯合國和院內人道事務協調廳(OCHA)關於葉門、衣索比亞、烏克蘭的饑荒資料。數字和人的臉,一起看才有效。
  • 不要為了"引人注意"才去看這類片子。斯凱說的"那又怎樣"門檻是給自己用的:問你自己,這件事如果我不去做,世界會少了什麼。具體計算,不說口號。
  • 如果你認識一個在葉門、敘利亞或利比亞工作的醫生、教師、NGO 人員,和他們保持聯絡。斯凱說他的片子很多來自這種長期關係,不是採訪來的。你能提供的是具體的連線,不是同情。
  • 下一次你面對一個你厭惡的人,無論是生活裡還是新聞裡,試著做斯凱做的事情:先進入他的世界觀,理解為什麼他覺得自己是好人,然後判斷。這個練習不會讓你原諒他,它只會讓"不可原諒"這個判斷有分量。
  • 把攝影機或手機拿出來的那一刻放慢半秒。那個半秒裡,先問自己:我現在是隻觀察,還是應該行動?斯凱二十多歲在海邊的那次失敗教給他的,就是這個半秒決定一個人是誰。
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we would come up to these rafts and these boats that were in really dire shape and people would be pushed off and people would jump off and people would fall into the water and some of them couldn't swim. And so we found ourselves in this moment where we had a choice. We could film someone drown in front of us or we could put our cameras down and pull them out of the water. The following is a conversation with Sky Fitzgerald, a two time Oscar nominated documentary filmmaker who made the films Hunger Ward, about the war in Yemen, Lifeboat, about the search and rescue operations off the coast of Libya, and 50 Feet from Syria, about the war in Syria. This is the Lex Friedman podcast. To support it, please check out our sponsors in the description. Now, dear friends, here's Sky Fitzgerald. Nearly 811 million people worldwide are hungry today and 45 million people are on the edge of famine across 43 countries. How do you feel? How do you make sense of that many people suffering from hunger and famine in the world today? I don't know if I can make sense of it, Lex. I mean, I think it's deeply disturbing to me that as a global community, we've allowed this number of people to go hungry when the food to feed them exists and the resources to feed them exists. I think the thing that disturbs me most about those figures is that many of those who are starving today or going hungry today are the net result of war and intentional acts by leaders to starve entire populations. And that's the most deeply disturbing part to me. You know your history and we all know that deeply embedded in the Geneva Conventions post World War II, the intent of one of those articles was to ban the use of starvation as a weapon of war because of what Hitler did during World War II. That's been reiterated multiple times over the years in international humanitarian law, including in 2018 because of the Saudi blockade over Yemen. And yet to this day, starvation as a weapon of war continues to be used in Ethiopia, obviously in Ukraine right now and in Yemen with the blockade over the country. And that disgusts me that the law is in place but it won't be enforced by the international bodies and the nation states that make up the international community. So when the starvation is a result of human actions, human decisions, that it's especially painful to make sense of. For me personally, yeah. I think that if you and I sit in here, didn't eat for three days and had to lay our head on the sidewalk for a couple nights, I think we would take hunger and homelessness a lot more seriously. And I think that's, for some reason, that's missing at this moment in history, tragically. And I think until that we can generate enough empathy, that's immediate for all of us to understand what that means to go hungry. I'm not sure we're gonna sort of marshal the global community to solve it. I did just that by the way, fasted for three days recently. It was fundamentally different, I think, because the thing that would be terrifying to me is not the fasting, but the hopelessness at the end of the fasting. Like I wouldn't know when the next meal is coming. I always had the freedom to have the meal. The fear, not just your own ability to eat and survive, but your family's. If there's loved ones, that's the other thing I don't have. I'm single. So I feel like the worst suffering is watching somebody you love that you're supposed to be a caretaker of and you can't take care of them. And if all of that is caused by leaders as a weapon of war, that is especially painful. So how can we help? What are the ways to help? How do we alleviate this suffering? Well, I think on the humanitarian front, we have to be aggressive and attentive and intervene in significant ways. And I think on the political front, we have to hold players accountable for their actions. So the leaders that start the war. So when you say we have to speak up about the decisions and the humans making those decisions that lead to the starvation. For example, let's make it concrete. So when I was, I don't wanna jump ahead, but when I was filming Hunger Ward in Yemen, I met a mother who, when she gave birth, weighed 70 pounds. The mother weighed 70 pounds. And so her daughter was starved in the womb. When she was born, she was born into a world with no breast milk, very little formula. So she was starved before birth. She was born into a world where she continued to be starved by a mother who herself was starved. I watched that child, her name is Asila, die in front of me. Asila had no chance for all those things we hope for, for a child in this world. She didn't have a chance to grow up. She didn't have a chance to discover love. She didn't have a chance to have a career. She was robbed of all of those things because of the insidious nature of hunger that she was born into. She didn't have to die, she was not starving. Her mother was being starved because of the blockade over the country. Now, who instituted that blockade? MBS in Saudi Arabia with the reinforcement and sort of tacit approval of the United States, our own government here. And so there are people who are responsible for the starvation of children and I think we need to hold them accountable. Now, that's incredibly difficult to do, but just because it's difficult doesn't mean it ought not to be done. And we'll talk about many cases like these throughout history and going on today. Let's talk about Hunger Ward. Let's dive in. You've been nominated for an Oscar twice. This is one of the times for a documentary. Can you please tell me what Hunger Ward, The Last Hope Between War and Starvation is about? Hunger Ward is a short documentary that really is an attempt to illustrate the effects of the conflict on Yemen, specifically on civilians. And we document it in both the north and the south of the country because it's a bifurcated country. The south is held by the globally recognized government in the south, which up until last week was run by, at least on the surface, by President Hadi holed up in Riyadh. He was essentially removed from office last week by, most people would agree, the Emiratis and the Saudis to put in place a presidential council. So we wanted to show that starvation was happening in very similar fashions, both in the south and the north. And we wanted to do this film because so few people in the west know anything about the conflict in Yemen, nor the US's complicity in it. And so my intent with the project was try to bring it to a larger western audience as an attempt to intervene and change the political status quo, which allows the use of starvation in Yemen to continue. So US complicity, who are the bad guys? Now, the world, unfortunately, cannot be painted in black and white of good guys and bad guys. But for the purpose of conversation, who is causing suffering in the world in this situation? Who started the war? Why? And then, of course, the roots of war go back in history. But let's start at the top. Well, there are bad actors and there are less bad actors. I mean, I think that's always the case in war, probably. And everybody loses in war. Yeah, I concur with that statement. In the case of the status quo in Yemen right now, it's a completely asymmetrical war. And so the Saudi coalition, which is made up of primarily Saudi Arabia, the Emiratis, United States, France, Britain, supplying weapons, but it's really driven and catalyzed by Saudi Arabia. And it's asymmetrical to a great extent just because of the incredible firepower by air that the Saudis use continuously to pummel Northern Yemen. When I was there, the sheer volume of airstrikes is hard to describe. And we show the result of only one in the film, really. But it's an asymmetrical war. The de facto authorities of the North, Ansar Allah, also known as the Houthi rebel group, they don't have an air force, right? They have a drone force, but they don't have an air force. And so from a military standpoint, it's completely asymmetrical. The Saudis really don't commit troops to the ground. They use only proxies to fight on the ground. What is the narrative they use to justify war? So there's a story on every side in war. Some of it is grounded in truth. Some of it is not at all grounded in truth, also known as propaganda. What's the narrative used by the Saudis for this war? The Saudi line is essentially that the Houthis are an illegitimate government, and that it's really a proxy war between Iran, who supports the Houthis nominally, and the rest of the world. That's the Saudi narrative. The reality is something altogether different. While the Houthis do receive support from Iran, this is a war started by and sustained by MBS in Saudi Arabia. Who's MBS? Mohammed bin Salman. And who is he? He is the son of the ruler of Saudi Arabia. What's his power? I'm asking basic dumb questions. He's the de facto ruler. Of the military and the... Yes, he seized control of the country several years ago, even though he, on the surface, is not the ruler of Saudi Arabia, he is. He's the crown prince. I'm sorry to interrupt often, but who is he as a man? What's your sense of the... Yeah, so I've never met him, and I likely will never meet him, hopefully. But he is, I know a lot about him through his actions, sort of in the MENA region, Middle East and North Africa region. And he is one of three, in my view, as an American sitting here in the US, three people in the world that I think has caused such an incredible volume of misery and suffering and murder on this planet that I think if he weren't around, the world would be a lot better place. And I'm not a violent person by nature, but there are three human beings that I think the world would be better off without. Do you mind, before I ask other questions, mentioning the three? Oh, yeah, Assad is one in Syria, and that comes out of an earlier project that I did in Syria and Turkey, and what I saw Assad as a ruler do to his own people. And Putin would be the third. Those three human beings are murderers on a scale beyond imagining. On MBS, are you able to think as a documentary filmmaker, as a human being, as a scholar, as a thinker, with an open mind about a man like that who does evil onto the world, and what that must feel like to be inside the mind of that man? So basically, consider his worldview. With most evil people, with all people, probably, but with people who do evil onto the world, they think they're doing good. They're the hero of their own story. Right, and so to be able to place yourself, I feel like, for me, to understand a person, I have to literally, like the way actors kind of have to do, you know, live inside the body of the person they're trying to study. Inhabit the character. Inhabit the person. So are you able to do that, or because you are also studying the people who suffer as a result, as a consequence of their actions, you just, you put them in a box, and you say, I hate the person in that box. I'm going to move on. This goes back to your black and white statement at the beginning, right? It's like, the world as a whole, of course, you know, is every gradation of gray, right? My background is theater, Lex, and so I was trained long before I picked up a camera to inhabit other characters, right? I have two degrees in theater, and so that level of sort of like walking in other people's shoes and trying to understand and empathize with their worldview is fundamental to how I live my life and how I do my work. So in the case of those three that I named, Assad, MBS, and Putin, yeah, I can go there and think through how they came to be, who they are, right, from afar, right? And after I go through that process, I still don't think there's any way that one can justify what they've done. We're going to talk about each of those people, for sure. Well, I'm not an expert on any of them. Well, you're a human being, which makes you a partial expert on human nature because nobody's an expert. You're just as good as anyone else. Anybody who actually carries a camera and listens and observe others isn't especially an expert of human nature. Who's willing to take that leap and truly understand somebody of any level, not leaders. I feel like to understand a leader, you have to first understand humans, and to understand humans, you have to see humans at their worst and their best, which is something that you've definitely done. So let's stick on Hunger Ward. This lens that you've chosen to look at this is through a single, maybe you can speak to that. You've mentioned the starvation as a result of war. What is the documentary? Like, what is the lens you've chosen to give the world a peek at the results, at the suffering that's a result of this war? People a lot of times will ask me if they've seen Hunger Ward, you know. They ask where the hope is, right? You read the byline earlier, The Lost Hope. And what I try to focus on in many of my films, including Hunger Ward, is in the very difficult context of war, as the case is in Hunger Ward in Yemen, I look for hope, and I look for inspiration, and I do that through people who are doing incredible things under the most difficult circumstances. So when I set out to do a film about starvation in Yemen, right? I mean, just listen to that statement. Where's the hope there, right? And yet what I found, what I discovered, were human beings that we could tell the story through who are incredible, inspirational human beings doing amazing things every day. One of those is Makiya Maji, a nurse practitioner in the north of the country at a small rural clinic. And another is Dr. Aida Al Sadiq, who's a pediatrician in the south of the country. And so we chose to tell the story sort of through their experiences as caregivers, devoting their lives to try to save this entire cohort, this entire generation of children that has been born into starvation. And that's an incredible, difficult task, but equally inspirational to watch these human beings devote every minute of every day to save a child. I mean, in my view, nothing is more important than that action. Maybe on that point, real quick. So there is suffering at scale, starvation at scale. There's, I mean, the numbers, maybe you can mention in Yemen, what are the numbers in terms of people in starvation, but from a perspective of a nurse practitioner or a doctor, you always have, you're treating one person in front of you. So how do you make sense of that calculus, of like there's a huge number of people suffering, and then there's just the person in front of you? Is that all we can do as humans, is just to help one person at a time? Is that the right way to think and to approach these problems or can you actually make sense of the numbers? Speaking just as a human being, I think the scale of suffering is so great in Yemen that I think I'd be overwhelmed if I focused on that scale. You've probably heard that a child dies every 75 seconds in Yemen from hunger. So we've been sitting here, how long? 35 minutes or so. That's a good handful of children that have already passed away. So to overcome sort of, I think, that danger of psychic numbing, which can happen when you think about suffering on such a large scale, as a filmmaker, as a human being, I have to focus in on the individuals, on those human beings in front of me. And I think that's exactly what Dr. Al Sadiq and Makiya do to keep going each day. And one of the amazing things about these two healthcare providers that we showcased in the film is that they treat anyone who shows up, right? They don't have to have money. They don't have to have any resources. They just have to get to the clinic or the hospital. it's also a creative question to capture intimate moments where families are dealing with suffering children and dying children and caretaking is active and ongoing all the time. You don't want to interrupt that moment. And so that informs how I do things. So we go fleet and nimble and small. Those are all really good words. But so it's logistical on the one hand, but it's also a creative choice, right? So when we filmed Hunger Ward, two people were filming the entire film, right? Me and my director of photography. That was the two people in the room? Two people in the room. That's it. Yeah, that's it. The whole film, right? We had a field producer as well in this part of the country, but in terms of camera, it's just two people and we're doing everything. And we have lenses that are long enough that we don't have to move to camera. We don't have to move to capture the film. So we can tuck into a corner sometimes, right? And so just what's long mean? That means they're standing farther away and they can look. Zoom lens, it's not a prime lens. So it's not a fixed focal length, right? Because a fixed focal length, you have to move a lot more in order to capture action. With a zoom lens, maybe a 105 at the long end, I can tuck into a corner and just film from 15 feet away instead of having to get right up on someone, right? So you're less likely to interrupt the scene and you can kind of become the fly on the wall sometimes. So I'm very intentional about that piece of it so that we can capture those vulnerable moments and not interrupt them. That's really fascinating too, because the access, I don't often think about this, but that's probably true for me as well. Part of the storytelling is to be in the room. And that's the hard part. For me, most of my films, that's the hardest part. Actually, as hard as Hunger Ward and Lifeboat were to film and 50 Feet From Syria, the getting there piece of it for the last two was much harder. Yeah, and it's also, it's a creative act. It's, I don't know if it is for you, but it's the kind of people you talk to. It's like how you live your life. Like the kind of people I talk to right now, they steer the direction of my life and steer the direction of things I'll film. So it's not just like you're trying to get access. It's like, it's everything. It builds, it builds and builds and builds and builds. It builds on itself, yeah, yeah. I mean, part of the thing, even saying, talking about some of these leaders and conversations with them, it's almost like steering your life into the direction of the difficult, of like taking the leap. And if you're a good human being and a lot of people know who you are as a human, like not as a name, but as really who you are, that like putting that attention out there, it's somehow the world opens doors where the access becomes, the access that once seemed impossible becomes possible. And then all of that is a creative journey to be in the room. I think that probably is, I mean, it's true even for fiction films probably, is like everything that led to that, like to be in the room, the journey to be in the room and to shoot the scene is maybe more important than the scene itself. And like really focus on the creative act of that. Yeah, that's really fascinating. And especially, I mean, with a documentary, you get one take. Yeah, you can't say, hey, reset, right? Yeah, yeah, exactly. Ah, that is so interesting. As you were in some of the most difficult parts of the world in the room with some of the most difficult stories to be told. And yet, I think that's why I keep doing these stories. Because once you have that lived experience for me, it's moving. It moves me to bear witness to these inspiring people under difficult circumstances. And I can't come back to the US afterwards and walk down the grocery aisle where there's 50 different choices for canned peas, right? And not sort of feel that lived tension, right? That lived tension of the privilege that I have here in the US. And then I have a choice about what to do with that privilege, right? And the last thing I wanna do is start doing stories about dandelions, right? There's far more important things to do on this very limited time that I have on the planet. And I think that's catalytic for me. Like I feel that mortality each day. And my goal is to tell as many of these stories before I'm gone. Could you speak to the getting access? Is this just, you know, is there interesting stories of how a weird or funny or profound ways that led you to get access to a room? Each one is a different adventure. And it's definitely an adventure. It's an adventure. Everyone's an adventure, yeah. Probably one of the easiest ones I ever had in the recent past was for 50 Feet from Syria where I literally broke my hand in a bicycle race. And after many months of trying to get an appointment with an orthopedic hand surgeon, a specialist, I finally did and he was Syrian American. And the Syrian conflict had just begun and we just started talking about it. And after he looked at my hand in the first five minutes, he's like, yeah, you need surgery, great. But then somehow we started talking about Syria and like five minutes in, he just stood up and like put the privacy curtain around us, supposed to be a 15 minute appointment or so. And we talked for an hour, right? So, you know, those moments of sort of mysterious confluence happen, right? And I think you have to be open to them when they do happen because I'm a storyteller, I'm always looking as well, right? So, because he then contacted me later and said, Skye, I am going back to the Syrian border to volunteer as a surgeon, do you want to come with me? That was an easy one. That's probably the easiest one I could give you. But it came out of this interesting moment, very personal moment, right? Lifeboat and Hunger Ward are completely different. And I had to really work hard to gain access to those stories. So you intentionally thought like what, I want to get access to the story. And then what are the different ideas? And they often might involve a doctor or a dentist or just being maybe intentionally and aggressively open to experiences that lead you into the room. So it's funny you mentioned the doctor because I have similar experiences now. I've just gotten access to all kinds of fascinating people in the same way. They're all around us. They're all around us. You just have to look. Yeah, exactly. It's like there's fascinating people everywhere who are doing incredible things, but we have to be open and keep our eyes open and realize that there are amazing human beings everywhere. Yeah, there's networks that connect people just through life. You meet people, you share a beer or a drink or just you fall in love or you share trauma together. You go through a hard time together. And those little sticky things connects us humans. And if you just keep yourself open and embrace the curiosity. And then also the persistence, I suppose. Like how long have you chased access? Does it take days, weeks, months, years? Lex, I'm not the most talented filmmaker in the world. I'm not the smartest guy in the world. I think if there's qualities that have served me well in my career, it's persistence and tenacity, right? I've always been sort of a slow burn human being. Like I would never hit a home run, but I hit a first, right? A single to first, and then I'd hit another single to first. So I ran a marathon when I was 18. And I think that is illustrative of sort of how my career has been. I just keep going. And I believe in this notion of incremental evolution that with each project, I try to learn from it and take away lessons learned and improve my craft, right? And improve how I leverage that craft and improve how I tell the story from a narrative standpoint each time. So that on the next project, it's a little bit better. And that's the arc of my career is learning, learning, evolving, evolving, so that I can make a little better film the next time. How do you gain people's trust? Like for example, there's a line between journalists and documentary filmmakers. Nobody really trusts journalists. Yeah, right, exactly. But a documentary filmmaker, of course I'm joking, half joking. I don't know which percentage joking, but some truth. But documentary filmmaker is a kind of storyteller, an artist, and somehow that's more trustworthy because you're on the same side in some way. I don't know. Maybe on the same side, yeah. Is there something to be said how you gain the trust of people to gain access? Are you just trying to be a good human being? Is there something to be said there? Well, so I do draw a distinction between journalism and filmmaking because I think you're right, they're different. And there are some filmmakers who do hue to sort of the journalistic tenets of who, what, where, when, why, fair and balanced on both sides, right? Make sure everyone has a voice. I don't. If you say fair and balanced, you're rarely either fair or balanced. I've seen that with journalists. Journalists often, unfortunately, in my perspective, sorry to interrupt you rudely and go on a rant, but they seem to have. Go on a rant, do it. They seem to have an agenda. As opposed to seeking to truly tell a story or to truly understand, especially when they're talking to people who have some degree of evil in them. Well, we all have an agenda, right? I think in anything we do, whether it's like to seek truth or some larger principle, I always have an agenda. I chose to work with civilians and caretakers in Yemen on Hunger Ward rather than to go interview MBS, right? That's what I'm interested in is bringing that to the world, right? But in terms of building relationships and trust, it's really, I think about transparency as much as anything else and going in in a collaborative sense. So I don't think of the people that I film with as subjects, for example. I think of them as collaborators. So it's a different mindset that I go into projects with. That's beautiful. And it's based on relationships, right? You have to build relationships with other human beings, however you can, and that takes time and it takes listening and it's active. So I've talked about the notion of consent before, which is so important in nonfiction film. And I hew to this idea that you don't just slide a piece of paper in front of someone, have release form and have them sign it, right? And then you're done. That's not the nature of true consent in my mind. It's you have to work on a foundation of active consent every single day that you're working with someone. And that's based on relationship, right? And it's based on dialogue. So it's trust that I'm always aiming for. It's the building of relationships, which I'm always aiming for, which is why yesterday I got a bunch of photos from Dr. Al Sadiq in the South of Yemen. And she sends me photos all the time of the children that she's currently treating because we have an active relationship that's continues on and probably will for many years to come. So it's going to continue. And that's the only way that I can do these kinds of films. Let me ask you about silly little details of filming. Before we go to the big picture stories, cameras, lenses, how much do those matter? You mentioned director of photography. What's your, how much do you love the feel, the smell of equipment that does the visual filming? You know, there's some people, they're just like, ah, they love lenses. How much do you love that or versus how much do you focus on the story or the access and all those kinds of things? I'm not a tech geek, but because during the bulk of my career, I've worked as a director of photography myself for other people in order to pay the bills over the years, you know, I know the technical side of it because I've had to know it and I've had to train myself and learn it. So I see them as necessary tools. And again, because I believe, you know, film and cinema is and should be visually driven and not verbally driven. I want the best tools possible within my means, right? And within the logistical ability of the project because we have to go so small, right? I can't afford nor can I bring a huge $100,000 lens. So if I gave you a trillion dollars. A trillion dollars? Yeah. Wow. Unlimited. Yeah. There's still huge constraints that have nothing to do with money. Yeah. Like you just said. Yeah. So what cameras would you use? You know what I'd do with a trillion dollars? I could do a lot with a trillion dollars. You're not allowed. You're only allowed to fund the film and no corrupt stuff where you like use the film to actually help children. No, you're not allowed to do any of that. What I would do with a trillion is I wouldn't invest in it. Well, I guess I would invest in current. I would increase capacity to do more films. What I would do. So I would buy basically the perfect little, you know, mini equipment set, right? But then I would train three teams maybe to do the same thing that I've been doing so we could multiply and scale up. More and more stories. Yeah, that's what I would do with the money. But the actual setup. Would remain small and nimble. Yeah. And what about lighting? Do you usually use natural light? Do you ever do? I mean, sorry for the technical questions here, but highlighting the drama of the human face. Yeah. That's the visual. That's art. That's like, to reveal reality at its deepest is art. And do you use lighting? Lighting's such a big part of that. Do you ever do artificial lighting? Do you try to do natural always? You know the best lighting instrument in the world? Is the sun. At the right moment of the day. And so I predominantly use natural light at certain moments and just shape natural light during the course of these small human rights stocks. That's not to say we don't bring instruments sometimes, but when we do, they're very small and again, compact. So for example, I have this small little tube kit that's just three instruments, right? That you can charge with USB. Because electricity is often a major issue where we go. So there's just three little tube lights with magnetic backs that if we find in a situation where, you know, we can't get enough exposure for a hallway or something, and we have the time to throw it up, we'll throw it up if people are walking, if collaborators are walking down that hallway a lot, for example, at night, just so we can see them, right? So it's instances like that. Or if we do do an interview, which we don't do very often, but if we do, just so we have a key light on the face, right? And always bring a reflector or two, you know, just to shape natural light as well in ways. But it's about shaping rather than producing light for us. Got it, as we sit surrounded by black curtains in complete natural light. So just so you know, this room is like a violation of the basic principles of using the sun. So behind the large curtains are giant windows. Yeah. So this whole. Should I rip them open? Should I rip open the curtains real quick? How much of the work is done in the edit? That's another question I'm curious about. And how much do you sort of anticipate that? Like when you're actually shooting, are you thinking of the final story as it appears on screen or are you just collecting, as a human, collecting little bits of story here and there and in the edit is where most of the storytelling happens? I've developed this sort of mental paradigm for myself over the years that speaks to that. And I call it the three creations, right? And so when I'm doing a film, the first creation for me is my preconception or visualization of what the film is going to be before I shoot it, right? So I have this entire vision of what a film's gonna be. And sometimes it can be pretty specific. Like I'll think through the scenes if I know the locations and everything, and I'll have this idea of what I'm gonna create, right? And then I'm there filming, right? And always without fail, reality is something altogether different than what I thought it would be. But it's still good to have the original idea. Yeah, yeah, but if I tried to hold to that original vision, right, and to create a film out of that idea, they'd be crap, all the films would be crap. So I have to adapt, I have to evolve my approach and then embrace what is actually occurring with the people actually doing it and then reenvision. So that reenvision is very active during the entire filming process. And so that's the second creation, that's the rethinking and revisualizing based on what we're actually experiencing and seeing what this film is going to be. And then I finished filming, right? And we bring the hard drives back and we plug in the hard drives in the edit bay. And oftentimes, because it's two of us filming most of the time, I haven't seen all the footage. Because in the field, it's all about just filming, right? And then just transferring the footage and getting on safely, you know, clone to multiple drives. I don't have a chance to review everything. I can't do rushes like you do on a large feature. So because I'm filming half of it, I know what I've filmed, right? But I haven't seen everything the director of photography has filmed, right? So the next stage for me is reviewing every single frame of what's been filmed. And that's where discovery happens the third time, right? Or the second time rather is, wow, now I thought we'd filmed this, but actually there's this over here. And then I have to open up this second vision and turn it and transform it into a third vision for the film based on what's actually on the hard drive. So is this like a daily process? So what I do, my process is that if it's a really difficult project, I'll take a break before I go through this just for healing, you know, and some space away and fresh eyes. And usually that's about a month. And then once I reengage, I reengage whole hog, I reengage fully and I review every single frame. And as I do that, I create a spreadsheet. And for Hunger War, that spreadsheet was, I don't know, 1500 lines long or something where it's basically log notes. And I watch every scene and I take notes and I know really what we have. And once I've gone through that process that takes about a month and I really know what we came back with, I create an outline for the film from that. And that's the third visioning, right? That's usually completely different than my original vision for the film to some extent, right? But I have to stay open to that entire process or I'd be trying to create something that I can't really create. So I think those are the three creations for me. That's so cool to know what we have, just to lay it all out and to load it in into your mind. Cause like, this is the capture of reality we have. It's a very kind of scientific process too. Cause you know, in science, you collect a bunch of data about a phenomena and now you have to like analyze that data, but now your phenomena is long gone. Yeah, yeah, yeah, right, right. Now you just have the data. Just the data and you have to write a paper about it, like analyze the data, it's similar things. You have to like load it all in. Where's the story? How do you, that last probably profound piece of doing the editing, like in your mind, like how to lay those things out? Well, it's almost like the scientific process, right? I have a hypothesis, a creative hypothesis, right? Not a scientific one. But then I'm testing the hypothesis during the course of filming, right? And I have to stay true to what the data tells me in the end creatively. So it's very similar to the scientific processes. I don't know what we should, we should probably coin that. Yeah, that's pretty good. Creative scientific process or something like that. But then you actually do the edit and then you watch, that's also iterative in a sense, because maybe when you have a film, that's 20, 30, 40 minutes, or if it's feature length, like do you ever have it where it sucks? Like it's not at all. Is there a stage where it sucks? Like a stage where, right, right. Like it's where it's like, no, this is not, this is not what I was, like when it's all put together in this way, this doesn't, this is not working right. This is not right. Or do you, is it always like an incremental step towards better and better? It's incremental. Yeah, it's incremental. Yeah, and there's always some moment in the editing process where there's a breakthrough, where suddenly I understand how it fits together more fully. And you have to be, like you said, resilient. You have to be patient that that moment will come. Yeah, exactly. Are you ultra self critical or are you generally optimistic and patient? I don't think those are mutually exclusive. Right, so you just oscillate or are they like dance partners or something? They're dance partners, yeah. Definitely dancing all the way through the process. By way of advice, you know, to young filmmakers, how to film something that is recognized by the world in some way. I would say, you know, first off, learn your craft, right? Because I think craft is incredibly foundational, right? To creating a powerful story. And sorry to interrupt, but when you say craft, do you mean just the raw technical, the director of photography, like the filming aspect? Is it the storytelling, is it the access, the whole thing? I think craft is more than just knowing how to push record on a camera or what lens to use, right? That's part of it, right? But I think at least in nonfiction, you know, I'm a product to some extent of having to know how to do it all, right? Having to teach myself how to do it all. Because I didn't go to film school, you know? But I became so enamored of telling stories through a camera. What was the leap, by the way, from theater to storyteller? Oh, I just needed an extra class in grad school. I was in a MFA directing class and I needed an extra class and I just sort of like talked my way into a television directing class and fell in love with it. And the actor became the director. Yeah, yeah. Well, yeah, I mean, I wasn't an actor, but I had to act and I had to know the craft of acting because I was in the theater, you know, to work with actors. Did you love it, though? Did you love acting? The theater? Yeah, theater? The first, yeah, as an undergraduate, yeah. But then I learned pretty quickly that I was pretty bad at it, or at least not very good, and that my skills lay elsewhere in more sort of behind the scenes and shaping a story. When you started taking a class, but also telling stories as a director, did you quickly realize that you're pretty good at this or was it a grind? That's a good question, Max. I think, I definitely knew right away that it was more my wheelhouse, right? And I think part of that was because I grew up in sort of a world of imagination. And I think that active imagination as a child really lent itself well to the skillset that a director needs, right? To shape story, to shape narrative, to shape performances. So I think it was a much more natural fit for me. Was I excellent at the beginning? Heck no, no, I think few people are, but I learned. Where was the biggest struggle for you? Is it, so your imagination clearly was something that you worked on for a lifetime. So I'm sure that was pretty strong. Books, came from books. Books. But the actual conversion of the imagination, you said shape the story. Where was the skill most lacking in the shaping of the story initially? Technical side. Just technical side. Yeah, like, you know, cause I taught myself everything. What kind of microphone should I use, right? What kind of camera? What does this lens do? What's that lens do? I didn't know any of that. And so I essentially was, I have been self taught, technically. How do you get good technically, would you say, when you're self taught? Just doing it over and over again. And what kind of stories were you telling? I began shooting local commercials for. For money? For money, yeah, yeah. So you're doing professional projects? Yeah, yeah. And so I kind of learned on the job as I did it. How many hobby projects did you do, just for the hell of it? Or were you trying to focus on the professional? Well, I was trying to make money, right? Right out of grad school, just to pay the rent. And that's a forcing function to, I mean, I personally love having my back to the wall or financially you're screwed if you don't succeed. So that's nice. I mean, I lived out of the trunk of my car for a couple of years after grad school, just freelancing, just like, but that couple of years really helped me learn fast because I had to learn fast. So I did a couple of voyages around the world for this group called Semester at Sea, that is a floating university that where they go out three and a half months at a time with about 500 college level students and about 35 professors. And so you're shooting every day for three and a half months in like nine different countries. And so that really was like instrumental to me becoming a pretty good camera person pretty quickly. And you were doing most of the work yourself? One man, one man band, yeah. The second voyage, I at least had an editor with me. Yeah, but I was shooting everything. Yeah, what's the perfect team? Is it two people for nonfiction asking for a friend? Some kind of interested in some storytelling, not of the level and the sophistication that you're doing, but more. I think you have to allow the story to dictate what the size of the film should be. For these small human rights docs I do, I think two or three, it means you work your butt off, because you're doing everything, right? But it allows you to tell intimate stories and have that access. I'm doing a film this summer that's a scripted piece where we'll probably have 25 crew people. Oh, wow. So it's a completely different endeavor altogether. But doing it yourself, what do you think about that? Even though you have that trillion dollars. Oh, I have that trillion dollars again? Sweet, you can write that check before I leave, right? Yeah, I will. Okay, great. I've never seen a check for that big. It's gonna be interesting. How many zeros is that? I write them so often, I've lost track. Or the United States government sure as heck writes them often. Okay, anyway, I mean, is there an argument can you steel man the case for a single person? Not for me, not for me, and here's why. What I've found is that by being a team of two filming with a field producer, by two people filming, it allows us to double our footage first off, right? So we have twice as much footage in the time we're filming to come back with as opposed to one person filming. So you're each manning a camera? Yeah, constantly. And how much, sorry to keep interrupting, how much interaction and interplay there is? Sometimes the director of photography is in another room filming a different scene, if it makes sense. Sometimes we're cross shooting in the same room, right? Just depends on the needs of the moment. So we come back with double the footage is one thing. But as a director, so that's, you know, given how access is sometimes shaped by the events so that we can only, something, you know, in Lifeboat, for example, you know, a rescue operation may only happen three days, right? So you want as much footage of that as you can. But the other piece of it that's really critical for me, I found is that by having another human being I'm filming with, who I'm co shooting with, it frees me up as a director to not always have to be shooting either. I can do all the other work to build relationships, right? To have side conversations with people, to sort out the right way to tell a story, right? Or to transfer footage, knowing that the director of photography is still filming during all that. So it frees me up to think of as a director rather than just an image acquirer. Yeah, cause there's also, I don't know how distracting it is. You've obviously done it for years, but setting stuff up, it preoccupies your mind. Like pressing the record button, and like framing stuff and all that, that still takes up some part of your mind where you can't think freely. That's my choice, right? That's how I work best. That said, the caveat there would be that's not the only way to do it, obviously, right? Like one of my favorite documentaries of all time is a documentary called A Woman Captured, shot in Hungary, by a single filmmaker with a single camera with a single lens, right? And it's brilliant, and powerful, and moving, and interventional. It's incredible filmmaking, and it was a single human being who created that film with a collaborator or subject. So it can be done, it's just not how I work best. Yeah, how much personally would the other person, how important is the relationship with them outside of the filming? Like. With the director of photography? The director of photography, say. Like, how much drinking, and if you don't drink, whatever the equivalent of that is, do you have to do together? How much soul searching? Or is it more like two surgeons getting together? Is it surgeons, or is it a jazz band? Well, it could be either, right? Hopefully not at the same time, though, because I don't think surgeons and jazz bands go well together, probably. They're both good with fingers, I suppose. Exactly, but I'd rather maybe not play jazz while they operate on me. But I think, for me, I think there are moments of both, but usually not at the same time, right? There are surgical moments where the moment is so pressing, you really have to be that task driven, right? To capture as thoroughly as possible whatever's unfolding, right? But I think there's other times where you do improvise like jazz, right? And where you have a lot of choices ahead of you, and you're doing maybe a dance with the other camera person, right? In order to capture a scene as creatively and fully as possible during a fixed duration. How much, you said shaping, because it is nonfiction. But I feel like there's so many ways to tell the same nonfiction, that is bordering on fiction. Yeah. Well, it's storytelling. And how much shaping do you see yourself as doing? Like how important is your role? How you tell the story? I suppose the question I'm asking is, how many ways can you really screw this up? Every day you can screw it up. I mean, that's really the, I think what you're asking about is really the ethos of documentary filmmaking, right? I allow a lot of things to guide my choices. One of them being, am I being fair, right? Not balanced, but am I being fair to what I'm witnessing? Does the camera capturing in a fair way the truth of the reality? Some fundamental truth of it. And it also speaks to consent, right? Am I being fair in a sense of consent? Do I have active consent in this moment, right? Regardless of whether I have a signed piece of paper. I always find some way to document it, whether it's just direct address to camera or a translated release. So there's, actually that's an interesting little, so they say something to the camera that they consent or they sign the thing. Yeah, so for example, the large broadcast companies have this formalized process where they present a piece of paper, right? And the subject reads it and they sign it and then you have permission and that's irrevocable, right? So it'll hold up in court. That's not how I operate, right? And so it's just, for example, that doesn't work if someone's illiterate and can't read that piece of paper, right? What if they don't know how to sign their name, right? So instead you have to have a conversation, ask questions, have them ask questions, come to a complete understanding before you even know whether they understand what you're asking, right? And then in that case, if someone's illiterate, then you have that conversation, you just sit down and it takes a long time sometimes, but you have to do it. And then if they still wanna participate and they give you their consent, they can't sign a piece of paper, right? So then you just do in their native language, right? Direct consent to camera in their language. Interesting, but also you're speaking to the consent that's just a human placing trust in you. Yeah. You make a connection like this. That's the most important consent, yeah. I hate papers, I hate papers and lawyers because they, exactly for that reason, yeah, okay, great, but you should be focusing on the human connection that leads to the trust, like real consent and consent day to day, minute to minute, because that can change. Absolutely, and it does change. You mentioned A Woman Captured. I'm sure you can't answer that, but I will force you. What are the top three documentaries of all time, short or feature length? Oh boy. This is not your opinion, this is objective truth. Maybe top one, what's the greatest? We got, let's see, March of the Penguins. That's probably number one for me. Really? No, I'm just kidding, I don't know. I do seem to, the metaphor of penguins huddling together in hard, cold, like in the harsh conditions of nature, that's something that's kind of beautiful. I don't love all nature documentaries, but something about March of the Penguins. I think Morgan Freeman. Yeah, he narrated it. Narrates it, so maybe everything, just any documentary with Morgan Freeman, I'm a sucker for that. Warner, Herzog, The Life and the Taiga, The Simple People. I love Grizzly Man, I love Grizzly Man. I think that's one of his best works. Yes, I think that's Joe Rogan's favorite documentary. It's both comedy and, I mean it's. Tragic comedy. Tragic comedy, yeah. Is there something that stands out to you, I mean I'm joking about best, something that was impactful to you? Just to put it out there, I don't think there's any way to say that they're objectively the best three documentaries of all time, but for me, and you may find this interesting given your background, is that I think my top three are all from the Eastern Bloc, actually. So Aquarella by Viktor Kosokovsky is one of my favorite, and it's a couple years old now, which is sort of a meditation on the place water has on our planet and on our lives. I think A Woman Captured that I mentioned, which was shot in Hungary. Is it a feature length one? Both are feature lengths, yeah. It is just brilliant, and it I think has yet to find distribution here in the U.S. But it's the perfect example of what they call verite, or direct nonfiction filmmaking. A European woman, this is the synopsis, a European woman has been kept by a family as a domestic slave for 10 years, drawing courage from the filmmaker's presence. She decides to escape the unbearable oppression and become a free person. Wow, so the filmmaker is part of the story. Part of the story, it didn't start that way, but during the course of the story, the filmmaker comes to understand that this is actually modern day slavery. And rather than just allow it to be, actually enables and assists this woman to free herself from slavery and become a free woman. I wonder, sorry, on a small tangent before we get to number three, like Icarus is interesting too. How often do you become part of the story, or the story is different because of your presence? Like you changed the tide of history. Yeah, well, back to just like one person at a time that we keep talking, we keep coming back to that theme on some level. So this could tie in interesting to one of my favorite films actually. So the last two films that I would mention for my top four list would be, the third Eastern Bloc one would be a film called Immortal in 2019, which was shot in Russia by a Russian woman that sort of examines the place of the state in shaping individuals to be vehicles for the state. I mean, that's my own synopsis, but that's one of my takeaways from the brilliant 60 minute doc or so. Again, Russian filmmaking is really quite good and powerful. The fourth one would be a Frederick Wiseman film, Titicate Follies, which was filmed in the US decades ago, inside basically the bowels of an insane asylum or a mental health institution. And I bring up Wiseman because he is really the godfather, so to speak, of direct cinema or cinema verite. And when early in my career, I really believed in what he expressed as the place of the verite filmmaker, which is simply fly on the wall, which is only observational in nature, right? And I believe that that's how I should be as a nonfiction filmmaker, that I was there only to bear witness, to observe, and not to intervene in any way, shape, or form. And that was the sort of foundation for how I operated for many, many years. And then some things happened. So one of those things that happened was I filmed Lifeboat. And during the course of filming Lifeboat, which covered rescue operations in the Mediterranean off the coast of Libya, in the first three days of that rescue mission, we came upon over 3,000 people, asylum seekers, floating in flimsy rafts in the water. And we were on the Zodiacs and we were filming. And within the first couple hours, we would come up to these rafts and these boats that were in really dire shape, and people would be pushed off, and people would jump off, and people would fall into the water, and some of them couldn't swim. And so we found ourselves in this moment where we had a choice. We could film someone drown in front of us, or we could put our cameras down and pull them out of the water. And so that's what we did. We put our cameras in the bottom of the water, bottom of the Zodiac, and just started pulling people out of the water. And if I was Wiseman, according to his paradigm, then we should have just filmed. And I didn't anticipate that moment beforehand. I had no sort of foreknowledge that I was gonna find myself faced with that dilemma of the moment as a documentarian. But there was no question in my mind that I had to put my camera down and pull that fellow human being out of the water. And I don't regret it at all. So I've come to a different place. I've evolved to what I believe for the kind of film that I do is more appropriate. I can go to sleep at night knowing that, regardless of how the film would have been different if I hadn't made that choice, I made the right choice as a human being. So I think of it as being a human being first and a filmmaker second in moments like that. That's beautifully put, but I also think you could be a human being in small ways too, like silly ways, and put a little bit of yourself in documentaries. I tend to see that as really beautiful. Like the meta piece of it? Yeah, just put yourself into the movie a little bit. Because break that third, fourth, whatever the wall is, is realize that there's a human behind the camera too. For some reason, me as a fan, as a viewer, that's enjoyable too. I think there's a real authenticity there behind the story, especially with these hard stories that you're doing that there's a human being struggling to. Like observing the suffering and having to bear the burden that this kind of suffering exists in the world and you're behind that camera living that struggle. And there's small ways to show yourself in that way. As you know, I don't do that in a big way. But I actually, there are subtle moments where I allow that presence to live just for a second. Like I hate belly button docs, that's what I call them. I don't know. What's a belly button doc? A belly button doc is navel gazing, right? Where it's sort of a narcissistic filmmaking where someone just studies their own place in the world. Right, I think. I see, yeah. I think my, I'm more concerned with how I can intervene, right? Yeah, well, you're trying to really deeply empathize. Yeah. So like, if you do empathize, who am I? I don't wanna center myself in these stories. It's not about me, right? I am so unimportant. What is important is what's happening, what's unfolding in the world that we need to act upon. And I think it's selfish and narcissistic to push myself into these stories unnecessarily. Now that said, I think there is some small value in what you're saying just to remind viewers that there's obviously a filmmaker at play. So sometimes the way that I do that is just like through a question on camera. I'd allow the audio to live of a question or during a conversation I'm having with someone so they can just hear how it's posed, for example, right? And to me, that's enough. Yeah. I do like moments when people recognize that you exist. They look at the filmmaker past the camera and yes, you ask the question in an interview or something like that and they respond to that. Yeah. Like they respond to this like new perturbation into their reality that was created by this other human. Yeah. I especially like when those questions or those perturbations are like a little bit absurd and like add something very novel to their situation and that novelty reveals something about them. So as opposed to capturing the day to day reality of their life, you do that plus the perturbations of like something novel. Yeah. But of course, there's all kinds of ways to do this. Let me, what was number five, by the way? I only gave you four. You just. I'm just gonna stay at four. There's a short doc I like, I mentioned, they're called The Toxic Pigs of Fukushima. I know, I know. I apologize. I know, I know. It's dark. It's a great title though, right? It's a great title. Yeah, great title. No one's seen it, but it's great. It says what it sounds like. Yeah, yeah, it's exactly what it sounds like, but really brilliantly executed. Well, let me ask you about Lifeboat because it's extremely, I don't. It's a really moving idea. Just the fact that this exists in the world, that there's, as a metaphor, as a reality, that there is a set of people trying to flee desperately. It's the desperation of it. And now with these refugees, the desperation of that, of trying to escape towards a world that's full of mystery, uncertainty, doubt, could be hopeless at times, and you're willing to do a lot for your own survival and for the survival of your family and all those kinds of things. That's kind of the human spirit, and you just capture it in Lifeboat. Can you tell me the story behind this film as you started to already tell? Can you tell me what is it about? So Lifeboat really seeks to sort of lift up and showcase the asylum seeker crisis in the Mediterranean when it was at its height in 2016. And it came to be for many reasons, but one of those reasons is colleagues in the NGO community really shared with me that when the borders between Greece and Turkey were shut down, that the flow of Syrian asylum seekers that was initially going across from Turkey to Greece was going to shift westward across the Mediterranean. So I started to research that and discovered that was exactly the case, and then further stumbled upon the fact that nation states hadn't really stepped up to address it and that there were hundreds of asylum seekers often drowning in these flimsy crafts that were pushed off from the shores of Libya because the EU wasn't doing its duty to patrol those waters from a humanitarian standpoint. And so the net result of that was that this whole sort of like humanitarian community sprung up and it was civil society based that tried to meet the needs of those asylum seekers to just ensure that fellow human beings weren't drowning, simply put. And one of those was the small little NGO called Sea Watch, which when they discovered what was happening, just cobbled together a coalition of volunteers, bought a research vessel, retrofitted it, and motored down off the coast of Libya to start pulling people out of the water. And again, I found that inspiring, right? I found that inspiring that this group of volunteers was doing something that our leaders wouldn't, right? And it was something as basic and simple as saving human beings. And I thought there was an inspiring story there. And as it turned out, there was. Have you ever saved someone's life as part of making these documentaries directly? And directly, I think you probably have countless lives, but directly, were you put in that position? I don't wanna, I mean, I certainly poured people out of the water who couldn't swim, I did that. And that's again, speaking to the basic humanity, put down the camera and help, yeah. So this is people coming from Libya, trying to make it across the Mediterranean Sea on a crappy, tiny boat. From a filmmaker perspective, how do you film that? Was there decisions to capture the desperation? Well, we were going back to this idea of access and how that's so fundamental to my approach. And we were bound by the strictures of the rescue operation on this Sea Watch vessel, which was 30 meters long. And we were two of a crew of 15, right? So we had to multitask all the time because the only reason we were on that boat was by agreeing that if needed, we would do whatever necessary, right? To help, right? And so it was very active on multiple levels and we were making decisions each and every day that were not only filmmaking and creative decisions, but also decisions about how to live that duality, right? Of being a humanitarian and a filmmaker simultaneously. And the greatest example I can share of that was, or with my director of photography in that project, Kenny Allen, Kenny's a big guy. It's like, he's got like arms like tree trunks. And he, because he was so physically able and strong, the head of mission really tasked him to be on the Zodiacs to pull people out of the water because he could literally with one arm reach down and just oftentimes pull someone out, right? Whereas usually it would take two or three people, right? And so when we were at the height of triage and there were people in the water all over and rafts were sinking, Kenny was out pulling people out of the water. And this went on for like 24 hours, right? And at the end of that first day, I remember like looking over on the deck and seeing Kenny like help people up from the ladders to walk them back, right? And his camera was nowhere to be seen, right? And so I walked over to him and I just grabbed him by the shoulders and said, Kenny, where's your camera? And he didn't know. He had no idea where his camera was, right? And so I just said, Kenny, we're here to do what you're doing, but we're also here to film it, right? To make sure that we document what is unfolding in front of us so that we have a record of it, right? So we can bring it to a larger audience. So you need to go find your camera so we can also document it. And that kind of pulled him out and he went and got his camera and started filming again, but that gives you a sense of sort of this world that we had to live in in order to get the story done. But I think to be a great director of photography, to be a great director, you have to lose yourself like that in the story too. But usually with a camera in your hand, right? But sometimes you forget the camera. I mean, there's a, I feel like if you're obsessed with the camera too much, you can lose the humanity of it. You get obsessed with the film and the story. It can become clinical. Yes, it can become clinical. Absolutely, and it's, you know, yeah, absolutely. And we don't wanna become, I don't wanna become clinical in my film, certainly. Let me ask you a strange and perhaps edgy question. So some filmmakers believe it's justified to break the rules in order to tell a powerful story. Warner Herzog, I read this somewhere, teaches young filmmakers to pick locks and forge documents and so on. Oh, I didn't know that, interesting. What do you think about that? Bending the rules in service of telling a story. You would, of course, never break the law, but is there, does that, just generally speaking, speaking, bending the rules and so on? You know, just to elaborate on this question, perhaps, I'm distinctly aware that there's parts in the world where the rule of law is not, like, enforced as cleanly as it is in the United States, as fairly as it is in the United States, that there's a kind of, there's a lot of bribery, there's a lot of, like, you don't really know to trust, you don't know if you can trust the cops or basically anybody. So, like, the rules are a very hazy kind of concept. And a lot of them, especially, like, it's funny, but authoritarian regimes often have a giant bureaucracy buildup that's full of rules. There's more rules than you know what to deal with, and you can't actually live life unless you break the rules. Anyway, laying that all out on the table, do you ever contend with that, on what are the rules I can break or should break to keep to the spirit of the story? I think you have to ask yourself, are the rules just, and why are they in place, right? So, for example, coming into the airport in southern Yemen, right? If I just tried to walk through the airport with all my equipment, even with all the permissions beforehand, like we had, without having a fixer at the airport beforehand to make sure we didn't go through the standard line, right? We would have been caught up for three hours at least negotiating over our equipment and eventually paying a bribe to get it through, right? That's just reality in a place like Yemen. And so, of course, knowing that, right? Having talked to colleagues who had taken that path previously, I took a different path, right? Where we hire a fixer beforehand to sort it out beforehand, right? Rather than spending three hours of our time and paying a series of bribes, right? Instead, we're going to get it fixed beforehand so that we can walk through a different line and have no one look at any of our equipment. That's a pretty good trade off in my mind. What about security when you're traveling in these places? Do you ever have bodyguards? Well, several questions around that. Are you ever afraid for your life when you're filming in a war zone? Is there any way to lessen the probability of death? I don't have a death wish. I try to mitigate risk however I can, however I can. But one of the ways I can't do it in a conflict zone is by having armed security with me. And the reason for that is because, especially in a place like Yemen, right? If you have armed security, you become a target in a way that if you're operating under sort of the auspices of international humanitarian law, I actually have more protection. So I don't bring security. If you're working in Northern Yemen, for example, And it's incredibly moving to see sort of the flexibility of their thinking in terms of how they make that work. Makiya, for example, I saw her in the north of the country. It's an incredibly rural clinic that she works at. So it's like a magnet for all the cases in the north of the country. People come from hundreds of kilometers away sometimes for specialty treatment of pediatric malnutrition. And one time I saw a child come in and it was a male relative that brought this young girl in. And just because of sort of the gender dynamics in Yemen, there had to be a parent or a relative there to stay with the child while they're at the clinic. And it was a male relative. And so what many doctors in that instance would do would just turn them away. And instead what Makiya did is she walked into one of the rooms, talked to one of the other mothers and convinced them to become the temporary guardian, essentially, of this child until a female relative could arrive. So, you know, she's flexible. She finds solutions rather than allowing the problems to deter solutions. One child at a time. Yeah, yeah, one child at a time. You mentioned that you saw a child die in front of you. So when you're filming this as a filmmaker, what's that like psychologically, philosophically, creatively as a filmmaker, as a storyteller? What do you do there as a human and as a filmmaker? Or what's that whole experience like? Because you get to, like you said, you take it to the whole journey of a starving mother giving birth to a starving child. It's not something I want to film. It's not something that I certainly wanted to happen or seek out, but it happened. And the sad truth is that it happens every week at that hospital. And so when it happened in this instance, I felt an incredible responsibility to do justice to that reality, to acknowledge that a child had just died of starvation related causes. And to find some way, if the parents wanted us to, to integrate that into this story we bring back to a Western audience. And I've filmed many difficult things over the years. And usually I really love filming. And I didn't love filming Hunger Ward. It was not a process that I enjoyed on any way, show, perform, sadly, because of the content. Because who wants to watch a child die in front of them? I don't, but I did. And I had to. And when that happened, I felt an incredible responsibility again, to go deep, right? To go deep with that family, to tell the story of this hospital with every sort of ounce of focus and talent that I could bring to the story. Because people should know that children are dying of starvation right now as we sit here. And that that doesn't have to happen. And it is happening because of political dynamics that we can intervene on. Is there times you wanted to walk away, quit the telling of the story, come back to the United States where you can just appreciate the wonderful comfort you can have just sitting there and having food and freedom to do whatever you want, those kinds of things. Doesn't have to be in the United States. In a lot of places in the world. Well, that dynamic of sort of like survivor's guilt on some level definitely exists. One of the hardest things from Hunger Report actually was eating, right? Because we were in these malnutrition clinics, they're called TFCs, Therapeutic Feeding Centers, where over a long period of time, children lost the ability to eat normal food, right? And couldn't digest it and just were literally starving. And the practitioners were trying to bring them back to a state of thriving. But to leave those clinics, right? And to go to our camp or to go to our hotel and then to have access to food, right? Because we could buy food on the streets and in the hotels. I mean, it was a very intentional act throughout the course of the shoot to look at a piece of bread, right? Or to look at a bowl of rice and think about that child in the TFC and think about how the privilege of having that bowl of rice that I could eat and digest. So it certainly every day helped me appreciate, right? The privilege I had. Every bite you take. With every bite, absolutely. And so I wouldn't call it guilt. It wasn't exactly guilt, but it was definitely mindfulness, right? Meditate on the suffering of people who can't. That's right, exactly. So that knowledge sort of, it was catalytic in some ways. It sort of moved us forward really wanting to shape the most powerful story we could because we were surrounded by so much suffering. So much suffering every day. How did filming that movie change you as a man? As a human being? You've filmed a few difficult documentaries. That one is a heavy one. When you think of the person you were before you filmed it, and now when you wake up every morning and look yourself in the mirror, how is that person different? Every documentary I do changes me in a different way. Like I am not static in that sense, right? And preformed, it's like I change with every project because so many of them are difficult and challenging, right? And so in order to do them, I have to allow myself to change and be changed by them. In the case of Hunger Ward, you may remember the girl Omeima, who's the 10 year old girl who we showcase in Auden in the south of the country. And we were there when she was admitted to the hospital. And when she was admitted, this 10 year old girl weighed 24 pounds and she could barely stand up. And we started with the permission of the family to start to document her treatment and to see what would happen with this young girl who is so severely malnourished. And we watched her be treated by the nurses and the doctors in Sadaka Hospital. And slowly over the course of a couple of weeks, we saw her change. We saw her start to sort of gain strength and start to recover. And she also watched the caregivers very carefully. And I watched her watch them. And I'll never forget there was a moment where about two and a half weeks, I think, into her treatment, we walked into a room and I saw her offering a cap full of water to another younger child who was also starving. The shot's actually in the film. And so to see Omeima, this child who's starving, giving sustenance to a younger, more vulnerable child who is also starving, moved me deeply. So I saw her learn from the caregivers around her. And as a human being, as a filmmaker, I was incredibly inspired by Omeima. That capacity for compassion is there. Even within a 10 year old girl who's starving. And so you asked what changed me. That's one moment, right? Rather than being crushed by such heavy content, it was actually the opposite, where I came away inspired by a 10 year old girl. And I didn't anticipate that. I didn't think that's what this content would do, but it's what it did. It reinforced for me sort of this incredible capacity we all have as human beings, right? To do good, right? To even within the most difficult circumstances, to choose who we become and what we do. And a 10 year old girl taught me that or reinforced that for me. Were you able to feel the culture of the people, so the language barrier, were you able to break through the language barrier, the culture barrier, to understand the people? Because even suffering has a language of sorts, depending on where you are. The way people joke about things, the way they cry, the way. This is an interesting thing I actually wanna ask you. Sorry, I'm asking a million questions. you're going to have someone from the de facto authorities with you anyway the entire time you're there. So the authorities are with you in form anyway. Regarding fear, yeah, of course. I mean, fear is a natural human emotion, right? And I think we have a weird mindset, this sort of heroic mindset surrounding fear in the US, which I don't pay tribute to. I believe as a natural human emotion, it's an alarm bell that I need to pay attention to. And I think rather than pretending to be brave, I think you have to just acknowledge that fear has a place to keep you alive. And I think it's a matter of not letting the fear arrest you and allowing the fear to live and then acting anyway. Don't you think as a documentary filmmaker, the fear is a really good signal for potentially a good thing to do because there's a story there? So is fear is an indicator that you shouldn't do it or is it an indicator that you should do it? It's probably an indication you should do it, right? And strangely, I think that's why, I think that if there's something unusual about the work I do in some part, it's because of these types of stories, right? They're hard to access, but you also have to have a threshold of willingness to do them when you can't, there is no guarantee of physical safety, right? And maybe that's why you should do them. I'm very much motivated by the things that scare me. They seem to direct the things that are worth doing in this all too short life. How often do you interact with our friendly friends at the police departments of various locations? Like, because of the humanitarian nature of your work, are you able to avoid all such friendly conversations or are you often making friends with our? I try to avoid the friendly police people all over the world as much as possible, but in some instances, it's important to be proactive, right, and make sure that they know what you're doing before you do it. So it's all about the context and the situation. For example, working in Northern Yemen, you couldn't film for five minutes if you didn't have paperwork, because you'd be taken away. So you have to make sure you have all those permissions ahead of time. 50 Feet from Syria, I would love to talk at least a little bit about this film. First, can you, high level, can you tell what this documentary is about? Yeah, it was early in the Syrian uprising, and we returned to the Syrian Turkish border with a Syrian American orthopedic surgeon who was volunteering, operating on refugees as they float across the border from Syria into Turkey. And it was an attempt at the time, before a lot of films had come out about the conflict, to really show again the effects of the war on civilians. You've heard me echo that sentiment multiple times now, but people knew there was a major conflict in Syria, but didn't really understand the form that that was taking and the impact it was having. And so we embedded into the, at the time it was the only clinic in Turkey that was sanctioned by the Turkish government to treat Syrian refugees. And so we filmed there with surgeons as they operated on war victims. And we also went into Syria into some of the camps as well. So in this film, there's a man who crosses the border every day to retrieve the wounded and fair them safety and care. And you also mentioned about heroism in the United States. Can you tell me about this man and just people like him? Like what's the heroic action in some of these places that you've visited? So in that instance, you know, I thought of him as the Turkish Schindler, right? Because he was a human being who of his own volition, no one was paying him to do this, but he was spending much of his time. He was just a local businessman who really saw the need in the camps right across the border 10 K away. And he saw the medical need in particular and how hard it was to get people in desperate medical conditions across the border where there was a clinic just right across the border. But because of the security and the layers of security, they couldn't get out by themselves. So he took it upon himself as a Turkish person to build relationships with the Turkish guards, which was relatively easy. And then he built relationships with sort of the guards in the no man's land between the Syrian guards and sort of those who lived in the middle area. And then also with the Syrian guards at the camp. And he would drive out there daily and bring them food, right? Talk them up and build relationships. And so every day he would bring these guards food and build relationships with them. And what that meant was eventually, right? He had this avenue of access to and from the camps. And so he started using it and he would drive this avenue of access through the three layers of guards each day. And then they would open the gates for him because he had made himself trustworthy in their eyes. And he would receive the most desperate medical cases that were coming from all over Northern Syria, right? To receive medical treatment. And he would, as you see in the film, he would ferry them into the back of his car, right? And then drive them to the hospital where they would receive operations. And then he would bring them back if they wanted after they'd healed and recovered back to Syria, if they wanted to return out post recovery. And he didn't get paid for that. He was spending his own money to do it because he saw other human beings in need. And it's like we were talking about earlier. That's heroic, right? That's selfless. That's aspirational for me, right? Here's someone who is spending their time on the planet doing something of value and good to other human beings. I mean, if you draw parallels to Schindler, I feel like the fascinating thing about Schindler is that he's kind of a flawed human and is not the kind of human that does these things usually. But he just can't help it. And that's like the basic humanity. Despite who you are, the basic humanity shines through. I think the whims of war test people in those ways, right? They ask of you things that you may not even know were going to be asked of you. And then it speaks to who you are fundamentally as a human being. They reveal who you are as a human being, just as you said. Let me ask a kind of stupid technical question about publications of movies and so on. I've been recently becoming good friends with Thomas Tall, who was the producer. His company, Legendary, funded some of the big sort of blockbuster films and so on. And so obviously money is part of filmmaking, but also the release of movies. And me as a consumer, with Netflix, with YouTube, that's one of the reasons I'm a huge fan of YouTube is it's like out in the open. Access, especially historical access. Like over time, you can look back years later. If you pay some money, you can watch some of the great films ever made. YouTube, Hulu, Netflix, I don't know what other services there are, HBO, Paramount. Paramount Plus. Paramount Plus. Anyway, there's all these platforms. Spotify now. I understand they want to create paywalls and so on. It makes sense, but I'm a huge fan of openness and I'm really kind of torn by this whole thing. Anyway, that's a discussion for perhaps another time. But the short question is why is it so hard to watch your documentaries and other films, other incredible films on the internet? If I want to pay unlimited amount of money, I want to pay a lot of money to watch it. Why is it so hard? Well, Lifeboat is streaming free on the New Yorker. Yes, I saw that, which is interesting. That doesn't make any sense. And then also Hunger Ward is on Paramount Plus, but also it's also streaming free. So you can either go through a paywall or you can watch it with ads with Big Macs interspersed. Big Macs. Sometimes. Yeah, the contrast. It's tough. Well, no, it really reveals the power of the documentary. No, but it's still not, even those platforms are, I mean, they're not as easily accessible because you have to like, you have to use, you have to think and you have to chase a particular. You have to chase it, yeah, yeah, yeah. I guess from an economic standpoint, the answer to that is pretty clear, right? It may not be what people want to watch. Maybe people want to watch reality. Maybe people want to watch animal rescue shows here in the US, which is exactly why in part, I think it's so vital that we continue to do stories on things that aren't about flowers and puppy dogs, right? I would push back on that. So there's TikTok and you could say, well, look, humans just want to watch really short content because they seem to be addicted to that kind of thing. That's partially true. But they also watch two, three, four, five hour podcasts. On TikTok? No, there's different platforms for that. It's a place called YouTube, I'll teach you about it. Okay, yeah, I've never heard of it. It's a good place to publish documentaries, I think. Humans are interested in a lot of things and I've seen many times a thing that you think is a niche thing become a very big thing. But for them to become mainstream, they have to have a platform that allows for the mainstream to happen. The access. The access, the dumb, simple, frictionless access. The frictionless access is a really important thing. Paywalls create friction and not just because of the money. It can be free, but if you have to click on a thing or maybe sign up or put your email, it prevents you to enjoy the thing you would really enjoy and you know you would enjoy, but your baser human nature prevents you from enjoying because you can just open up TikTok and keep scrolling. So that's just something to say about platforms because I think the things that need platforms the most are things like your films. The things that I think a lot of people would love watching. They're very important and they can have viral impact on the world that is fundamentally positive. You know, it's just, it makes me sad that there's not a machine for celebrating those films. There are lots of machines to celebrate them, but they're just not as always accessible as YouTube, right? I mean, as soon as you write me that check for a trillion dollars when I walk out of here, then I'm gonna put all my films on YouTube because then I won't have to worry about, you know, selling them in order so I can make the next film because you know, film is not just an art. It's also an industry, right? And that tension between the two is a constant interplay that is a reality for me. So I always have to think about how can I access the largest audience, but also, right, go out and shoot the next film, right? So that longevity question is also an issue and the finances are part of that sort of equation that I constantly have to rewrite over and over again. How often, as a creative mind, do you feel the constraints, the financial constraints? I wish I could do a lot more films that I can't always because of financial constraints. So it's the number of films. Yeah. And is a film that you do currently, is a film that you do at any one time as you're filming it already funded or is it the funding from previous stuff that you're trying to use? Before Hunger Ward, I would just take a flyer on my films, right? Where I would just say this meets the so what threshold. This is a story that has to be told and I want to tell it. And then I could just go shoot it. And usually on credit, usually on a credit card, right? So based on a belief that Lifeboat was done that way. Yes. Right? 50 Feet from Syria was done that way. So you're on a boat, broke. Yeah. Yeah, but it's free food, right? And free lodging because there's a bunk on the boat. But I do that not intending to stay broke, right? But based on a foundational belief that if I bring to bear all of my sort of quiver of creative arrows to it, right? That I can create something of value, right? In the world, but hopefully also financially that then I can sell to someone. And you know, every time I've done that Lex, I've gotten into the black. So it's a risk and I have to have a certain risk threshold financially to do that. But I believe so deeply in these stories that I'm willing to do that. I didn't have to do that with Hunger Ward. Luckily I had funders for that film. Yeah. Yeah, take risks in this life. It's gonna pay off. Which reminds me of, let me ask you, I already asked you for advice about, for a filmmaker, how to win an Oscar. Well, I haven't won an Oscar. How to get nominated for an Oscar, that's true. Or just how to make great documentaries, how to make great film. But let me ask, even zoom out bigger. You mentioned some of these things, doing the things that you think matters. What advice would you give to young people, high school, college, dreaming of living a life worth living? What advice would you give them about career or maybe just life in general? How to have a life they can be proud of? Yeah, I don't know how you're gonna react to this given sort of your expertise. But I would say put down the smartphone, step away from the monitor, right? Because real life is not a screen, right? I believe that sort of the foundational skills which are conducive and important to success aren't necessarily those technical skills which we're going to learn in trade schools or university. I think they're more foundational than that. They're learning how to interact and listen. With humans? With humans, yeah, to really see and listen, right? And observe. And observe, right? And how to step out of your door and if the electricity goes out, right? And you're five miles away from your house, you don't need a smartphone to get home because you've set visual markers for yourself on how to get back to where you live, right? I think we're in danger right now of living in a world where if the satellites stop functioning, right? Then a whole lot of people have become completely dysfunctional, right? Because we're so reliant upon the screens in our lives. So I think there's a lot of foundational skills that have nothing to do with technology that we need to learn and everything rests upon those. So I would say learn those foundations, learn how to write well. Read a lot, right? It's a different kind of knowledge and wisdom that comes out of that. So reading is kind of the equivalent of listening and observing and writing is kind of integration of all of that that you've observed and listened to and tried to express something with that. So I think my training in the theater has served me so well in the documentary world, right? Because it's all about interaction and listening and talking and dialogue, right? And that's what I do in documentaries, right? Is I listen. Yeah, we mentioned fear. Being an introvert, I'm very afraid of people but I'm drawn to them and fascinated by them because of that. Enjoy listening to them. Totally. And observing them. And you mentioned reading. You mentioned books as a catalyst, as a stimulator of your imagination. Is there books in your life, a couple, one, two, three, that kind of left an impact or a little bit of a spark of inspiration early on in life that stand out from your memory? I was given The Prophet by Kahlil Gibran as a graduation present from my high school English teacher. And I still have that book in a special place on my bookshelf because I think it speaks to the nature of human experience, right? And I return to it all the time because there's wisdom there, you know? But there's many, many books. Fiction or nonfiction, what connects with you usually in the past, for the imagination? I read mostly nonfiction most of the time. Ten Points is a book I love a lot. What is Ten Points? Ten Points is, I think his name is Bill Strickland. He was the editor of, I think, Bicycle Magazine. And it's sort of his personal memoir of his experience growing up with a lot of abuse and how that transformed him as a human being. You know, one instrumental book for me that I bumped into in my early 20s, boy, these are all nonfiction, except for The Princess Bride. Have to mention, it's an outlier. No, no, The Seven Habits of Highly Effective People. I read that in my early 20s, and I found so many of the principles in that book. What are the habits from that one? Seek first to understand, then to be understood is one of them, you know? The notion of proactivity is one of them. It's really, and so I've held onto some of those principles through my life as well, for sure. What have been, you've observed suffering darker aspects of human nature in your own personal life. What has been some of the darkest moments in your life, darkest times in your life? Is there something that you went through and then perhaps you carry it through your work? Yeah, probably one of the darkest moments was an experience that I had, again, in my early 20s, and I was living in Southern California, and the Pacific Coast Highway that goes north and south along the beach, and there's that little concrete path that people jog and ride their bikes, and I was riding my bike on the PCH, and I was coming up to a corner on it, and I heard this tremendous crash, and it was really loud, and I came around the corner, and it was a car accident, a car crash. It was a multiple vehicle crash, and what had happened is that a Volvo had hit another car, and then when it hit it, it went over the top of the car and hit a Volkswagen van, and it peeled away the top of the Volkswagen van when it hit it and then landed. So three vehicles, and it just happened, and lying in the middle of the road was a body decapitated, and there was another person from one of the cars lying in the middle of the road, still alive, and then on the hood of the Volvo was this woman who had come through the windshield, just a mess, blood everywhere, moaning back and forth, and a bystander ran into the middle of the road and started administering first aid to the person lying in the road, and I stood there watching the scene and every fiber of my being, wanted to run to the woman on the hood of the Volvo and do something, anything, right, just to be there, and it was obvious to me that she was gonna die, but I felt like at least if I ran there, I could offer some comfort for her last moment, and right then, the sirens started to blare, and I knew that there'd be paramedics there within minutes, that people would come to help, and I froze, and I was scared, and I didn't do anything, and I watched while this woman died on the hood of the Volvo, and that experience is sort of seared into my consciousness, the fact that I watched and didn't act, I feel is one of the great failures of my life, that I wasn't able to act in a moment of need, no matter how small, and from that, I made a decision out of that experience that if I ever found myself in a situation where I had the ability to act and I could act to help another human being, I would act to help another human being in such need that I would act, that I wouldn't let fear freeze me. Instead, I would allow that fear to catalyze me into action and do something and intervene in whatever way I could, even if I didn't have the skillset. And in some ways, all of that echoes in your documentaries. I'm not gonna let fear stop you from trying to help. I think that experience, that experience of failure, what I framed as just human failure on my part is foundational probably to my work. I don't want that to happen again, Lex. I don't want to be that person who watches. I want to do what I can when I can. If we zoom out, you were just one human that witnessed that, that trauma. One human that witnessed so much suffering in different parts of the world. And as we zoom out across space and time and look at Earth, why do you think we're here on this Earth? What's the meaning of human civilization? What's the meaning of your life, of individual human life? And broadly speaking, what is the meaning of life? Skyfish, Cheryl. Oh boy, yeah. For me, I can speak personally on that only. And that's that I believe that the meaning of my life is to try to make the world a little bit better before I go. You know, I, when I was in theater in grad school, I directed a play called Shadowlands by C.S. Lewis. And there's a quote from that, it goes like this. We are like blocks of stone out of which the sculptor carves the forms of men. The blows of his chisel, which hurt us so much, are what make us perfect. Now, I would take away the perfect part, right? But I think I've remembered that quote for so many years because I believe in the underlying notion that the blows of the chisel, which are the experiences that we go through, shape us, right, necessarily so, and hopefully shape us into a better human being. And in my case, a human being that I hope can make the world a little better, you know, through those blows. Before it's over. Yeah, before it's over. Before you go, as you said, do you think about that? Do you think about the going part, your mortality? You ever think about that? You said you don't have a death wish, you try to minimize risk, but eventually it's gonna be over. Yeah, for all of us, absolutely. Well, speak for yourself. Well, you've got other plans as well. I tend to merge, you know, you've got other plans as well. I'm going to merge with robots, embody, no, not at all. Yes, for all of us, unfortunately or fortunately, or who the heck knows. But do you ponder your mortality? Are you afraid of it? I live with my mortality, knowing that it's fleeting, that my life is fleeting and that I'm gonna go into the ground, just like everyone else, or maybe as ashes, you know? So I live with that knowledge every day, but I don't allow it to stop me or hold me up. Rather, I really, it drives me, right? It drives me to try to get as much done as I can before I go, right? Yeah, so the knowledge of your death is a kind of dance partner, and you try to dance beautifully. This guy, you're an incredible human, incredible artist and filmmaker, and it's a huge honor that you would sit and spend your really valuable time with me today. I really, really enjoyed this conversation. I did too, thanks for having me, Lex, and thanks for doing what you do. Thanks for listening to this conversation with Sky Fist Gerald. To support this podcast, please check out our sponsors in the description. And now, let me leave you with some words from Elie Wiesel. The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference. The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference. The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference. And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference. Thank you for listening, and hope to see you next time. I find that the people, I've been talking to people in Ukraine and Russia, but in general, I've gotten a chance to talk to people who've been through trauma in their life. And there's a humor they have about trauma in hard times. It depends on the culture, of course. Certainly, Russian speaking folk, I mean, the more suffering you've experienced, for some reason, the more they joke about it. It's almost like they're able to see something deep about humanity now that they have suffered and they're able to laugh at the absurdity, the injustice of it all. And you could also say it's a way for them to deal with it. But that humor has a kind of profound understanding within it about what it means to be human. That I just, and then you, to really understand it, you have to know the language. So I guess I'm asking, were you able to really feel the humans on the other side of the language? I'd like to think so. I mean, as you noted, there are universities and there are universals in life that transcend language. I mean, suffering is suffering. Love is love. Compassion doesn't take place only through language. It's through actions. And so was there a language barrier? Absolutely. Did we try to bridge that through other means and sort of universal emotions and experiences? Absolutely. That's one of the things I always think about when I'm filming is how do we distill down to universals through imagery, through the vocabulary of cinema? Because I believe so deeply that that vocabulary should be visual. So the words, what's the most powerful way to express the universal? Is it visual or is it language words? I think it's visual. And we're talking about the human face or human face, human body, everything. Through actions as well. Actions, the dynamic. I'm thinking about a woman named Salha in the film who isn't named, but you see her multiple times throughout the film. And she's basically the matron of the ward in the South. And she's the gatekeeper for the ward. So no one enters that ward without her permission. She's literally the gatekeeper at the door. So no one comes in unless Salha allows them to come in. But then she also is sort of like the first point of contact for compassion in the ward. So when mothers and families are admitted, she forms relationships between the moms and the grandmothers, for example, who are admitted and who are living there on the ward. And she does it through hugging, right? She does it through bringing them food, right? And she forms these really rather quickly deep relationships of compassion with the families. And so it's amazing to watch and no language is needed, right, to bear witness to this. And she also suffers because of that, right? And so near the end of the film, if you recall, when another child dies and the mother is wailing, we actually cut away to Salha, who's in the hallway, who walks into another room and begins sobbing. She's not a family member, but she has a deep relationship with that family that she forged as soon as they stepped into the ward. So that's universal, right? To see a woman weep because a child has died, even if they're not related to that, that's a universal sort of emotional experience we can all relate to. So that's what I mean by visual vocabulary. And it's especially powerful because she has seen much of this kind of suffering and she's still, maybe she has built up some callous to be able to work day to day, but there's still an ocean underneath the ice. She's kept her heart open despite all the pain that she sees and feels every day. Somehow she's a human being who's able to do that, which is a very difficult thing to do, right? She still allows herself to be vulnerable. And maybe that's why she can do what she does. What lessons do you draw from other families in history? So for me personally, one that's touched my family and one of the great families in history is in Ukraine, Holodomor in the 30s. 32, 33, right? 32, 33 with Stalin. Maybe you could speak to the universals of the suffering here. What lessons do you draw from those other famines if you looked at them or in general about famine that are manufactured by the decisions of, let's say, authoritarian leaders? Well, famine doesn't have to exist or the bulk of famines on this planet, I believe don't have to exist. And most of them, or at least a good number of them are manufactured by the leaders that choose to use famine as a weapon, right? And Ukraine is one of the obvious examples right now, with siege tactics that are happening in different parts of the country. And we built international humanitarian law for a reason, many years ago, and it continues to be written to this day. And it's there to prevent what's happening in Ukraine right now. It's there to prevent what's been happening in Yemen for seven years. And yet there hasn't been any teeth behind it. And that's what disturbs me is that we can see how these famines are being used as weapons in war. And yet we aren't sort of using the levers of power that exist in order to, I think, to call out in important and powerful ways those who are causing them and to make sure that we hold them accountable on the global stage. Now, to some extent, that seems to be happening in Ukraine in a way that hasn't happened for a long time. And that gives me hope, right? And yet I don't believe we've done enough. And I think the national community needs to do far more than we are both in Yemen, in Ethiopia, and in Ukraine right now. There are certain kinds of things that captivate the global attention, and it seems like starvation is not always one of them. For some reason, murder and destruction gets people's attention more. The death, of course, is easy to enumerate, but it's the suffering that's the problem. Yeah, yeah, you know, when we went to film Hunger Ward, that was one of the creative questions that I was really concerned about because starvation, you know, it's not a quick action, right? It's a long, slow, insidious process, right? Just like hunger, right? And yet when you're hungry, right, it takes you over. It becomes the most important thing, right? It's just absolutely fundamental to life. It's like drawing breath. And so I really, before I filmed Hunger Ward, I struggled to sort of answer how we could creatively approach that because, you know, someone's sitting in a clinic, right? Starving or being treated for starvation, you know, that's a pretty static scene, right? And what we found was that because of the volume of cases and because of the nature of sort of how quickly how quickly people were coming and going is that it was more dynamic than we anticipated. And there's something also about starvation. You get tired. It's almost like it's a quiet suffering. Yeah. And by the way, there's something about when I think about dark times, I mean, you'll hear me chuckle, for example. I don't know what that is. That's almost like, it's almost like you have to kind of laugh at, you can't help but laugh at like the injustice and the cruelty in the world. Somehow that helps your mind deal with it. I mean, I see this all the time. Like when you're struggling, you can't feed your family. You lost your home. The last thing you have is jokes about. It's humor. Yeah, it's humor. It's like, ah, the fucking man fucked me over again. And there's jokes all around that. And then you laugh and you drink vodka and you play music. I don't know what that is. I don't know what that is. It's gallows humor, right? It's a way of, I think, simultaneously acknowledging and allowing yourself to move forward, right? Beyond the pain and the suffering. So you mentioned Ukraine and you mentioned Putin. What are your thoughts about the humanitarian crisis and generally the suffering that's resulting from the war in Ukraine? Well, first off, I think the conflict is just gonna exacerbate, you know, sort of the global challenge we have with displacement. The last entire trilogy I did was about displacement to great extent due to war. And, you know, this is a huge displacement of human beings regardless of the cause. And that is gonna sort of have a ripple effect across the globe for many, many years to come regardless of even if the conflict ended today. So there's that. That's gonna set up a whole nother strain on sort of the global sort of resources that come into play to deal with refugees. You know, there were 79 million displaced people on this globe prior to the Ukrainian conflict, right? You probably know the numbers better than I do in terms of what the current estimates are for displacement from Ukraine. It's four to six million. So what are we up to now? 73, 74 million individuals on this planet now who are displaced? That's a significant bump. I wish that the levers of power were used differently in situations like Ukraine and Syria, for example. So what are the levers of power? Well, military might. Let's take that for one, right? So I have always felt after working in Syria and Turkey that we completely missed our opportunity as a player on the global stage with military capability to prevent the killing of hundreds of thousands of civilians in Syria. We had the ability and we didn't leverage that ability. You know, the fact that I talked with so many Syrians during the course of doing that project who told me their stories of living in their house, right? And having a Syrian helicopter fly over their house and drop a 55 gallon drum full of explosives and shrapnel in their neighborhood over and over and over again. Not focused on any military targets, only meant to kill and sow fear, right? And early in the conflict, we could have stopped that. Before Russia got involved, we could have intervened and created a no fly zone. That we, the United States or coalition that we were a part of, yeah. And we didn't do it and we could have. And I think that's an example where we have the military capability to actually do good in a situation like that. And we don't usually use it for those purposes. And I think that's what a military ought to be used for beyond just defending our borders is to save others with the privilege that that power affords. What do you think about the power of the military versus the power of sanctions versus the power of conversation? They're all different tools, right? To be used at different moments. But if words fail, if sanctions fail, right? I think there are moments in history where power is justified, right? And I think Syria was one of them. I think when barrel bombs were dropping on civilian neighborhoods for months and months and months with no intent to do anything other than kill Syrian civilians, that's an instance I think where might is justified to shoot those helicopters out of the sky. Here's the difficult thing. We've talked about Yemen. Where's the line between good and evil for US intervention in different countries and conflicts in the world? It's easy to look back 10, 20, 30 years to know what was and wasn't a quote unquote just war. In the moment, how do we know? I think it's incredibly difficult to answer that, right? And I think that's why leaders make the wrong choices so often, right? Is they second guess themselves. I think you take all the data at your fingertips, all the intelligence that you have, right? And you look at it all very carefully and you make a decision, right? There are some instances though where it's very clear what's happening, right? And leaders still don't act, right? In Yemen right now, for example, it's very clear what's happening, right? Children are being starved because of a blockade. All the US would have to do is ensure that blockade, now there's a two month ceasefire in place now, but remains lifted beyond the ceasefire and children will stop starving. That's pretty simple. You can trace, it's a direct connection. And we haven't had the sort of the moral wherewithal to make that decision because we're too interested in maintaining positive ties with Saudi Arabia where oil flows from and so much influence because Saudi Arabia has so much influence throughout the MENA region. We want to keep that relationship tight despite sort of the moral wounds that come from that. About half the world is under authoritarian regimes and everybody operates under narratives. And there's a narrative in the United States that freedom is good, democracy is good. I have fallen victim to this narrative. I believe in it. I'm saying this jokingly, but not really because who knows the truth of anything in this world? I eat meat, factory farm meat, and I seem to not be intellectually and philosophically tortured by this, and I should be. There's a lot of suffering there. What do we do to lessen the suffering of the people under authoritarian regimes? Again, the same question. Military conflict, diplomacy, sanctions, all those kinds of things. Does that lessen suffering or increase the suffering for what you see in Yemen? Is it something that has to be healed across generations or can be healed on a scale of months and years? I'm just a guy with a camera, Alex, you know? But as a guy with a camera, I've seen a lot of things in a lot of places and I've seen the effects these decisions made by authoritarian leaders have on their own citizens. And that's what drives my thinking on this. And that's what drives and motivates me each day to raise the red flag through my films and say, listen, Biden, you campaigned for president in part on a platform that said that we would regain our prominence on the moral stage of the world and that we would prioritize sort of a moral paradigm over relationships with authoritarian regimes, Saudi Arabia being one. And yet when the CIA report came out that clearly articulated in detail that MBS was responsible for Khashoggi's murder and for cutting his body into pieces and probably burning it in the backyard of the embassy, what did Biden do? He didn't really make a pariah out of MBS like he said he was going to, right? What if he'd done something else and actually done what he said he was gonna do, which was make MBS? What if he had removed the ability for MBS to fly to the United States, for example? Now that's a sanction, right? That's a sanction that's individual and concrete and would be hugely embarrassing for MBS. That would have been Biden saying, this is unacceptable behavior, right? This is something which because you executed such a horrendous act on someone living in the United States, we are not going to give you a stage here at least, right? Within the borders of our country. Those are the things that leaders can do that I don't think they do often enough. And certainly our leader right now isn't doing it in the way I wish he were. He certainly has taken a different stand on Ukraine and been very vocal. But there's so many instances we could talk about where I feel like the political game and ship, right? Often falls into maintaining relationships like with MBS and Saudi Arabia rather than doing the right thing. Rather than as a nation, a leader of a nation saying, this is unacceptable. We have a higher standard than this. Cause I think when leaders do that, it becomes aspirational, right? It becomes aspirational for other leaders in the progressive world at least. And also it rings the alarm bells for other authoritarian leaders and says, you know what, there are lines, right? There are things that can't be done or there will be significant consequences. Like you will not be able to fly into our airspace anymore. And sanctions I think need to be concrete and individual to some, in addition to the larger scope. But when they're concrete and individual, I think often they're felt in a different way. You mean felt obviously by the individuals. And so the ripple effects of that might have the power to steer the direction of nations. Because of the nature of authoritarian regimes, right? Individuals have so much power. Exactly, right. So if Putin is put on trial in the Hague at some point, or at least there's the threat of that, right? Now that's likely never to happen of course because someone has to be in custody to go on trial, right? And he's never gonna allow that to happen. But just knowing that that danger exists is going to change his travel plans in the future, right? MBS not being able to fly to the US, he's gonna feel that and be embarrassed by that. So I think they have a special meaning and consequence in authoritarian regimes because of that. So you said you're just a guy with a camera. Yeah. I would say you're a brilliant guy with a camera. I'm also a kind of guy with a camera. You're a guy with a couple cameras. A couple cameras. I have more. A couple mics too. You got a couple mics, a couple cameras, robot over here. When you can't beat them with quality, you bring the quantity. That's right. So to me, that's also an interest partially because I also speak Russian and a bit Ukrainian. I wanna study that part of the world. I wanna talk to a lot of people. I wanna talk to the leaders. I wanna talk to regular people. To be honest, and I would love to get your comments on this, the regular quote unquote people are way more fascinating to me. As a filmmaker, how do you figure out how to tell this story? I'm sure a guy with a camera, you're looking at war in Ukraine, but also what's going on in Yemen and Syria and other places in the world. I mentioned North Korea. That's a super interesting one. Hard to bring cameras along. China, in Canada, the truckers. There's all kinds of fascinating things happening in the world. So you as a scholar of human suffering and human flourishing, how do you choose how to tell the story? How do I choose a story? How do I choose how to tell a story? Both a story and how, I assume those are coupled. So how do you choose which story to tell? And how do you choose how to tell that story? Well, in terms of how to choose which story, it's a bit of a mystery potion for me, frankly. I go often on instinct, but there's also a highly intentional piece of it for me as well. And the intentional piece is, I guess I'd call it the do I care threshold, or the so what threshold. You personally, just something in your heart just kind of gets excited or hurts or just feels something. So one of the things that disturbs me about American culture, Lex, is that we seem to be a people that's fascinated by reality television, for example. Like look at how many of us here in America watch reality television, right? That deeply disturbs me. Not that I've never watched an episode, I've shot a whole season of it once to make a living, right? So it's like I know it, right? But I feel like the things we should be paying attention to are the things, personally, are the things I choose to film, right? As a human being, as a dad, as a filmmaker, I think we should be paying attention to the fact that children are being starved in Yemen. I think we should be paying attention to the fact that Ukrainians are being displaced by the millions. So there's this so what threshold that I use. And I feel like it has to be a topic that if we don't cover and we don't put out in the world in the largest possible way, in the hope of intervening, in the hope of marshaling maximum resources and attention to solving the problem, that's what I'm dedicated to as a filmmaker. Because I didn't pick up a camera initially to film puppy dogs, right? To make people smile. I believe the camera is a tool for change. I believe the camera is a powerful tool that we can use to raise awareness and marshal resources and help people understand the impact that these geopolitical decisions have on real people's lives. And that's the intent I create each film with. Now, how I choose each story, that's the magic potion piece of it, right? And often one flows rather organically into another, frankly. So you just kind of, like you said, you go with instinct a little bit. To some extent, but oftentimes I choose the next project based on relationships I've developed in the last film. Right? And so one often flows into another through relationships I develop. And then a colleague will share a detail about something that's happening in a certain place. And I'll go, hmm, really, I didn't know that, right? And usually it's before it's hit the world stage in a big way. And so I start to do due diligence. And often that, it reveals it to be a much bigger and more pressing topic that I wanna learn more about. Before I talk to you about Syria and Lifeboat, you mentioned a camera is the best weapon. Maybe just, well, I can't take out a tank, right? But it's a good weapon. Second, top three. Yeah. I love the humor throughout this. I really appreciate it. We were talking about such dark topics. Yeah. It resets the mind in a way that allows me to think. So thank you. As a filmmaker, I almost wanna talk about the technical details. Uh oh. How do you choose to shoot stuff? Again, so maybe you can explain to me. I work with incredible folks that care about lenses and equipment and so on. And I tend to be somebody that just wants to kinda go as like a gorilla shooting, like not plan too much, just go with gritty. I'm trying to come up with words that sound positive. Do a positive spin on what I try to do. But like gritty, don't over plan, use, like we had a big discussion if you see this light. Yeah. It's on a stand that's a very ghetto stand. Yeah. You need a sandbag on that, man. Exactly. So no sandbag and like the stand is actually bending under the weight of that thing. It could fall on us. It could fall. It probably won't reach us, but it could fall. But the danger, live under that danger. Embrace that danger. Love it. Yeah. Because that thing is easier to transport than a heavier one. Yeah. Sandbag, that's extra weight. So if you keep, like people tell me there's the right way to do stuff. Like here's these giant cases with all the kinds of padding for transporting stuff. I transport most of the equipment in a garbage bag. Yeah. So that's just a preference because that's somehow that chaos allows me to ignore all the stupidity of loving the equipment and focusing on the story. So that said, I've never shot anything like worthwhile. Like there is power to the visual. Yeah, yeah, yeah. Like definitely. And so finding a certain angle, a certain light whether it's natural light or additional artificial lighting just capturing a tear, capturing when the person forgets themselves for a moment and looks out into the distance missing somebody, thinking about somebody. All of those like moments you can capture a lens, a camera can do magic with that. I don't even know the question I'm asking you but how do both technical and philosophical, how do you capture the visual power that you're after? Yeah. So, so many of my films I think are built on the premise of access, right? Built on this notion that the biggest hurdle to the story is getting there, being there in the room or being there on the boat while a crisis is unfolding. And that access typically is really nuanced and difficult to gain. And then trust flows from that, right? Cause usually it takes a long time to gain that access because that access is so hard fought. It necessarily informs how we film, right? To be in a room at Sadaka Hospital in Southern Yemen I can't have five people in that room, right? I can't have a boom mic over a scene. I want in creatively the opposite of that as well. So it's not just a logistical question,

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